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2010-02-07T20:33:00.001+08:00

2010-02-02T20:36:00.007+08:00

oh man, i raised my voice at my mum AGAIN!-.- I shouldnt have done it...Really...Wad's wrong with me? I bet i have hurt her feelings, the feeling of rejection u know???I guess, it's really hurtful!Oh no!Human's feelings r fragile....lol..i think it's the same for anyone...no matter how someone feigns to be nonchalant abt the matter,deep inside the heart, i believe,there's bound to be some weakness and they will feel some hurt.

Come to think of it,my mum did alot for our family, she cooks, washes clothes etc......BUT SHE COMPLAINS ALOT TOO!LOL and she has been slogging her whole life for our family...hais....and yet, i didnt really do much for her....i even shouted at her!!!Dat is so unfilial of me!

When i wanted to give her birthday presents or Mother's Day presents, she always refuses it....:( So i guess, the least i can do, is to be filial to her!
(BUT SHE ALSO NVR GIVE ME BIRTHDAY PRESENTS or cook any of my fav. dishes on my birthday-.-, yes, im pathetic lol, But...it's not dat our mother-daughter relationship is not on good terms la,it's just dat...........to her, birthdays r just some other day, it's not smth worth celebrating!:( hais...im ok with it, REALLY! )

I will try to be nicer to her......!

2010-01-31T21:11:00.012+08:00

Sigh......when r my pimples gg to get better??? Seems to have more and more
:( Hais.......stupid pimple woes...scarrring on my face....oh...damn...hais...

i start to have pimple breakouts(ever since last oct!)while other ppl's pimples have alr subsided......hais...im so envious of ppl whose face are so clear, no pimples, no scars>_< i used to have clear face too>< hais......

nth seems to work...applying oxy5 will leave scars behind, but if i dun apply, pimples keep popping out, the GP medicine and blue cleanser doesnt seem to work too.hais...i think im gg to make another trip to the clinic soon...maybe is becos i didnt eat the pills on time.:o sometimes, i forgot to eat.Hais.

Nvm, i must have faith!It hurts to see my face like dat and my elder bros asking me repeatedly why i have so many pimples!:( You think i wan de meh? Is it becos of hygiene reasons? I dun think so, i think it is due to hormonal change!DAMN!

Now, im really feeling the agony of being a teenager, the frustrations felt during the teenage yrs when pimples start to break out><

2010-01-27T17:39:00.005+08:00

Aiya...XiuLing, xiuling arh, STOP PONDERING OVER WORTHLESS STUFF! Just do what u gotta do!

And Im so proud dat I've been arriving early at sch these few days.....haha...i gotta KEEP reminding myself to wake up earlier, to eat faster in the morning and to dress up for sch faster, otherwise i will always dilly dally, it's really a bad habit of mine:(

I GOTTA KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!I WILL DEFINITELY NOT BE LATE!! JUST U WAIT AND SEE,im gonna get rid of my bad habit, hahahas:)

and today...is the track and field meet for relays....and hais....got last for both races i've competed in...Im the last runner for my team...so when i got last...i feel damn malu:(:( hais...maybe i run too slow le bah:( cannt seemt to catch up leh..sian....:( hais...even though i tell others it's ok...in my heart...i still feel a tinge of disappointment..

2010-01-19T21:13:00.004+08:00

Enjoy the video!Ppl!

Show luo and Rainie Yang are So cute tgther in this video and they have great chemistry, with their voices synchronised and all~=DD haha lol, Show luo is really cute with his dork "Mo Gu Tou" image.haha, maybe only he can pull off this image yet appear cute ba.LoL

2010-01-15T16:49:00.009+08:00

Im gonna be 18th yrs old this yr after my birthday alr.Even though my birthday is still quite some time away, i consider myself at this age to be able to be more disciplined and mature.It's time to make some wise and responsible decisions.Omg, i sound so serious.Lol.

Oh Wells, this shall be the resolution for this new yr.I haven written any resolutions yet.Lol

New Yr Resolutions(I hope it's not too late,lol)

1) Be more responsible for my own actions by Working Hard and NOT slacking.Cos last yr i really slacked alot....Keep using com watch this, watch that.Then ended up in the predicament of having to retest.

2)Be more disciplined.Complete the tasks given for the day instead of keep delaying one day by one day to do hw.

3) Try to be happy and NOT be too stressed.:)

4) Try to be nice to my parents and not pick a fight with them unnecessarily!(It's shortening my lifespan man, cos they can be so unreasonable at times:(
I will try to be less temperamental.Even if they really do wan to pick a fight with me, i shall stay calm and try to laugh to ease the tension.(think smth funny, it works:)It's all abt the mind:)

5) Become a much more STRONGER person!=DD I shant be a crybaby anymore, hopefully:)

I have big hopes and expectations of myself to complete the tasks i've set for myself for the day.

1) Finish up phenols and alcohol leftover qns!
2) Do Chem equilibrium tut.

Come on,Xiuling!!!You can Do it! Feeling lazy is NOT an excuse OK???:DDD

2010-01-11T18:19:00.009+08:00

YaY!!!I've passed the retest!! and got both subjects Bs.This is smth worth rejoicing but at the same time, NOT smth to be complacent abt,since the papers are much easier than promos but still....i find some of the qns difficult.Seriously, i suck at my studies, i everything also 半桶水 one.LoL.So Mada Mada Dane:)

I promised myself dat if i ever got to pass this retest, i will work doubly hard from now on.Perhaps, God and Tong Zi Gong heard my prayers. At least, i know dat hard work pays off.

At first glimpse, everything seems difficult to me, but really,as long as u have the will to learn and try, nth's too difficult.What actually sets one apart from another is one's determination.I rmb last time i quite hardworking one,really very guai kia, but in recent yrs, become more and more lazy...lol...due to computer,idols distractions and stuff.I hope dat im determined and disciplined enough this time......

Oh wells, the mountain pile of hw is waiting for meeee!!!and several tests are coming up!I better try to catch up with the pace!No slacking!

Yea, i hope dat this retest really taught me a valuable lesson, i wont ever want to fail again and go thru this mentally agonizing period again, causing me to have severe insomnia!(My dark rings r getting worse and my stupid pimples T_T)

And of cos, i must change my bad habit of being late!GAHHHH!The principal says dat i must sign a contract to not be late, in order to be provisionally promoted!AND WTH!I got fair conduct as i was late for 7 times in a yr....Grrrrrrr.....
So i DIE DIE must chg this bad habit la.

I shall DEVOTE myself to studying this time:)and i want to have good time management, since i will be helping to aid the Yiolympics event as well as City Alive as part of YEC member....WooHooo....So excited=DD

2010-01-10T14:28:00.004+08:00

......why am i so weak? im such a crybaby...cry again over retest.....cos i think im gonna retain.Im emotionally distressed.I duno i cry how many times le, over this retest, cry myself to sleep.Tmr gg to release results le......

I dun believe in miracles, what's done is done.

XiuLing! Brace urself up la!!!!!!

2010-01-08T18:50:00.003+08:00

Today, the sch sent us an sms saying dat we will be receiving our retest results on 11Jan, when sch reopens, instead of today supposedly.

Oh wells, i went to Plaza Singapura to watch movie,Old Dogs, with my classmates who stayed overnight ytd.Many left alr.I suppose they r too tired.The movie, was well....some of the hilarious parts were sicko la,lol,laugh until stomach pain,lol.

Then we walk walk and shop ard the mall.Build-the-bear house was awesome!So cute, we get to create a unique bear ourselves by using a step-by-step choice of the constituents of the bear. Lol, we just see only la, no money buy.Maybe,nxt time bahs.
So awesome, i only get to see this kind of shop in drama shows, but now,i get to see for myself.Im suaku,haha.

2010-01-07T17:55:00.007+08:00

Im back from the chalet.The chalet was quite fun,i got to know more abt my classmates and i even chit-chatted with jacq and maureen through the night, when we couldnt get to sleep.I've learnt several games associated with poker cards and they were fun.I 've gotten quite a few mosquito bites as well.lol.

Oh yea, truth and dare is a quite fearsome game,lol.luckily i nvr kena.But still,everybody gt their own secrets they dont wan others to know.This game is cruel in a way.....It's hard to lie too, oh man the 3lies-1 truth game just reminded me of the good and bad times of my childhood memories.

Originally intending to stay overnight for 2nights but i've decided to go back home.I wanted to prepare my heart for tmr, cos tmr is the release of the retest results.

Fear,Anxiety,Frustration is overwhelming me.

Luckily, i went back home.Cos I didnt want to break down in front of my classmates, spoiling the mood.My mind always starts to wander and i will think of pessismistic stuff.

I guess im weak and vulnerable after all....even though deep inside my heart, i didnt want others to see me as a vulnerable person. I hate it.

I've told myself dat no matter wad the results may be, i will not feel demoralised, i will not give up studying and will perservere on......It's easy to say, but it's really not easy to carry it out....after all, i really did work hard...

Ok, pls just let me cry for awhile, after which, i will go back to my usual self.

I hope dat i will become a much more stronger person in the future.

2010-01-02T13:00:00.002+08:00

Rotting at home for so many days,aiya....still gt tons of holiday assignments to do...sianx...

Yay, im gg to watch Avatar 3D with michelle,wanting, sudha this Monday,4th jan @ lido complex at orchard.I cannt wait!Cos this is the first time im gg to watch 3D movie,haha, i feel so suaku, i feel like watching 3D de for ages, but must be worth it la, i feel dat this movie will be worth my $10! wahahaha...LoL

And our class chalet is coming up too!~wondering wad we can do there...dun wan the usual playing of mahjong and poker cards,lolz.SO BORING~~~~hopefully, it will turn out to be as fun as i've imagined it to, dun wan just stone there.

Keke,maybe can go out to have fun then come back chalet to rest.

2010-01-01T01:25:00.010+08:00

Oh man, Kimi ni Todoke is the best romance anime/manga i've watched and read so far.Almost every episode made me all teary and it was very moving and it's a pure and sweet love story.I cannot believe dat such an anime can actually make me shed tears so easily.Oh man, i love the op song of this anime so much and of cos the anime too!:)

Oh dear, XiuLing, *knocks on head* come back to reality!Lol, such a sweet love story wont happen in reality.Nonetheless, i still love beautiful romance stories.=x

2009-12-30T21:33:00.005+08:00

Hanasakeru seishounen ep 34 is really good! The story is getting so intense.Li-ren got in the nick of time to save kajika, phew~~~and the kiss at the end of the ep was so good too!Kajika was almost dead!The bonds b/w Li-ren and Kajika is inexplicable.

2009-12-29T19:37:00.009+08:00

Yo ppl!:) The torture of countless sleepless nights and anxiety is finally over!Cos I've not been sleeping well for the past few days since my retest.I felt liberated once again!

Let's hope for the best:)

P.S.*Shrugs* at the sight of the pile of unattempted holiday hw

He's Hella cute!=)

2009-12-19T15:20:00.004+08:00

I cannt understand how a mother doesnt believe her own daughter and always likes to pour cold water onto me.

Instead of encouraging me to do well in the forthcoming retest, she says that "It's not that i look down on u, but i think dat u cmi de la, i want u to go out and work." in chinese.It's just so preposterous!

Im so furious!

And when i tried to call my friends to ask them for help regarding my studies, she says dat im wasting my time toking to friends, when i shld be studying....=.='"
She JUST doesnt understand dat im NOT JUST chit-chatting away, im REALLY trying to learn....

When i tried many times to point out these facts to her, she just claims that im MEI DA MEI XIAO.

u tell me wad to do??!!When she cannot win me through talk, she will just chg topic and says abt my weakness, like my current pimple breakout.(LI HAI LA!-.-)
Im SO HURT X_X Even the straight-forward me, sometimes i will think of others'feelings and i always just STOPPED myself in time from saying the wrong things at the wrong time.

She dont know hw to be understanding to ppl and is NOT sensitive at all and doesnt think through her brain whenever she talks!

On the other hand, i can barely ask my kor few qns, i ask one physics qn, he zao alr!T_T And my mum was still wondering whether i can uds wad my kor teach me or nt.

OBVIOUSLY,it's so irritating dat she doubted me for my intelligence, it's SO INSULTING!

My kor often teach uni physics stuff to me(he says dat it's gd if im exposed to uni stuff abit FIRST, i agree with him), and the mtds he taught me sometimes is different from the tys and the physics study guide),JUST WHAT DO U WANT ME TO DO LA?

i feel very indignant and guailan alr, gg to flare up any moment.I NEARLY flared up at maureen thru sms,when i suddenly realised dat OMG, IM BECOMING SO ANGRY,fortunately, i deleted the sms away and didnt send to maureen.She's kind enough to teach me physics stuff,i shouldnt even have thought of flaring up at her.

So, what i shld do NOW,IS TO PROVE MY MOTHER WRONG!AND I MUST PASS MY RETESTS!I MUST BE STRONG AND RESIST ALL THE NEGATIVE STUFF!

P.S.Sry if u guys r reading my current post full of rants abt my mother, cos i cannt have my feelings cooped up inside of me, otherwise i will surely go crazy!

2009-12-11T23:35:00.013+08:00

Oh My God, i've slacked yet another day away...i just did SOME physics qns in the morning then slacked this whole day away...hais...

OK, I promise u all dat i will work doubly hard from now, no outings for me le la, studies more impt.Hais...but then, hais.....who can i ask for help??!!

My bro is so into his gf now la.....almost everyday with his gf, he didnt have the time to teach me....then hor...aiya...nvm lorh...sighz

I nid inspiration, MOTIVATION!!!

Some stuff to motivate MYSELF!:

Remorse, Regret, Guilt will haunt me if i didnt give it my best shot this time.
If i just give up now, i aint gonna get anywhere.

What is it dat i want in life? Seriously,i just wanted to be a pri sch teacher. So, the least i could do is to get into university and i have to get a scholarship, otherwise i will have to worry abt my university fees.

I have to know what i want and what i need to do.
I have to Set my priorities right and GAIN power to FIGHT against desperation and distractions.

This is my LAST chance to make this phase of mine right.Am I just gonna waste this 2nd chance to retest?? when some ppl in other jcs dun even get a chance to retest?The answer is NOOOO!

Study is a Challenge to me, cos im becoming so lazy, but i have to learn to love it, STARTING FROM NOW!

BE INTERESTED NOW!!!!(if only i can transfer my passion and patience for watching bittersweet korean dramas to studying...T_T)

Somehow, i have to find the inner strength in me to overcome this challenge.

There's a reason why im here on Earth,living,breathing and staying alive.Im given a chance to study in S'pore whereas there are children in other countries who WANT to study but are not given the opportunities...and yet im NOT making full use of it.

I guess i just took this for granted..in fact, i actually took MANY things for granted...like how my father should pay for my education etc...it just seemed to be so rightfully dat this is the least dat parents SHOULD do for their children.

I guess the whatever analysis is RIGHT,being the third and youngest child of my family and all,IM A SELF INDULGENT CHILD,I find myself CONSTANTLY FINDING THINGS TO DO OTHER THAN THE ONE I SHOULD BE DOING...i like to pamper myself with cutisie stuff and yummy treats.

It's just dat SOMETIMES,i'll just stop in my tracks and reflect once in a while.I always tok BIG BUT nvr really do it.ACTIONS REALLY SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS.

Im prideful, likes to think dat im intelligent when in fact, im not.Likes to criticise ppl.

I HAVE TO MAKE myself USEFUL and not just be an aimless person, otherwise i can just go to hell.Lolx.

I JOLLY WELL FINISH THE TYS MCQ QNS BK AND the assessment bk dat i've borrowed, otherwise, i am NOT doing myself JUSTICE.

2009-12-03T12:40:00.003+08:00

Ytd i bought new sports shoes from New Balance, using the discount voucher dat were given to us,Ajcians. But using my own precious money of cos,$94.50 after the 30% discount!

Bought new specs as well:)Cos the old one is so ugly and old-fashioned and all.haha, finally persuade my mum to pay for it after i've bought it.I have my own ways...hehe:)

Alrights, i gotta go back studying le.CYA!:DD

2009-11-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

Today.....let's see....we've had SL Project at Hougang Student Care learning centre.The kids there pretty cute huhh.......:) Got one boy pretty handsome and cute, hahas....grow up surely become shuai ge de,LOL!Then my grp gt one kid,Tze Hin,SUPER CUTE and hyperactive!!!

After dat, we went back to sch to put back the hula hoop etc, stuff.AND MS Pillai treated us to PIZZAHUT!WOOHOO!~~~~~So Long nvr eat PIZZA from pizzahut le, i missed it so much!I Always only get to eat those not so high quality pizza like canadian,lol.hahaha.

God, I'll be learning this for today:)

P.S.Physics is driving me nuts>_<

2009-11-25T23:49:00.007+08:00

oh haha, im here to blog abt the nyaa odac camp now.Forgot to blog after the camp...lol!=x

Hmm....my group is called DIM SUM DOLLIES DUCKS!Extremely rdm de la, haha, very hilarious also, but better than nth.L.O.L

First day: We had campcraft, we stayed overnight, sleeping in 9-man tents(CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?lol) at West Coast Park, , but there were 6 of us girls sleeping in the tent.Though the 9-man tent is supposed to contain 9 ppl, i doubt there is enough space for 9 ppl! The 6 of us inside alr abit cramped liaox.lol.I COULDNT' SLEEP AT NIGHT!T_T abit noisy outside the tents, some ppl chattering away, and it was quite stuffy inside the tent.

2nd day: FUN & STRENUOUS! We had adventure racing from morning 9am to 4pm in the afternoon...We walked all the way from West Coast park to some faraway place(i cannt rmb alr, aiya,my stm-nessT_T), some flats which are our stations for the adventure racing game. We have to walk to all of the stations(long distances!) which we will acquire clues to who is the murderer who killed *jody* upon completing each of the stations.

The most difficult part is the vertical marathon, we have to climb all the way up to the 25th storey, with our heavy backpacks and stuff.X_X

Ok la, at least, i've overcomed it right.Haha,dat time i felt so giddy and terrible, having to climb so many stairs.

Kayaking is one of the stations, yah, quite fun to kayak~

Yay, night cycling is the best la!SHIOK-Ness!LOL:) But it start to rain ard 12+,abit troublesome but still shiok~hehes.

After coming back from night-cycling, P.S :We reached sch ard 2.30AM in the morning!Then we slept at MPH lor.VERY COLD, cos it started to rain in the middle of the night.Then it sux to wake up at 4AM to do Sanctuary duty until 5am b4 gg back to sleep.

The last day,is the giving out of prizes, sadly, my group didnt win anythingT_T but the experience was still valuable!and i get to know new friends in sch!
The part where some of the facilitators crossdress(several of them dress up as the murderer and we have to guess who is the murderer among them, determining from the clues we acquired from the stations) is the BEST PART!i laugh until my stomach pain sia.

Overall, nice experience!

Ok now, im abit rdm la(Well, i've always been!:)), but i will end with some pics from my fav. korean drama, You're beautiful!

And pretty wedding pic(This is a spoiler,the final 2 episodes 15 & 16, werent' even out yet and im waiting desperately!)

I like this wedding dress, simple yet classic.

2009-11-16T22:33:00.006+08:00

Today got aesthetics programme and 2 of the performers, namely Chiki and Kenny Ahern, came to our school to perform as part of the Central Singapore District Arts Festival.

What i can say for Chiki's performance is AWESOME! Omg lol, his robotic's dance movements totally resemble that of a robot's! Really awesome! Really eye-opener for me lol.First time i see somebody so amazing at imitating robot's movements.Of course, his crystal ball performance was magnificent as well.

He looks just like our age, i tot that he was in his early twenties, but who's to know that he is actually 29yrs old this yr!(frm http://www.performer-chiki.com/)

(LoL,You've GoT Kenny Ahern staring at u RIGHT IN THE FACE!)

Oh...as for Kenny Ahern's performance arh, all i can say is a bit lameeeeeeeeeeee.......LOL,haha, most funny is Yong Yuan being called onto the stage,lol.Extremely funny when yy say in chinese that he shouldnt sit at that place, haha, so funny lol.

Ok la, but kenny's performance is quite good lah, make us all laugh like crazy lol, at his crazy and funny antics, facial expressions etc.

Im amazed that he can balance the huge ladder on his nose!That's pretty AMAZING!

I like his phrase" TO LAUGH IS TO LIVE!"=DDDDDDDD

WAH, im like soooo excited for this yr's district arts festival.

AND Im looking forward to nxt wk's aesthetics performance too, got another 2 jugglers from Hiroshima and Japan respectively coming here to perform!

GAHHH.....IM SO EXCITED!!:DDDDDDDDD

That's like im kinda surprised that we can see these type of AWESOME performances in AJ, like so rare lol.But this yr's pretty exciting!Not to mention nxt yr too! Got City Alive and YiOlympics which i'll be participating as part of YEC=DDD

2009-11-13T20:37:00.015+08:00

These songs are so nice just like the new korean drama-You're Beautiful, featuring some of my fav.actors and actress: Park Shin Hye, Jang Geun Suk, Lee Hong Ki(frm F.T Island)...Enjoy!:DDDDD

Alrights! Im off to studying now.Ciaos!~GoGoGO!

2009-11-10T23:41:00.005+08:00

Me, maureen,Ying Chyi and Jacq went to cass's hse to make sushi today.
Note to self:Must rmb to put pics of the sushi we made:)

i've finished watching Jennifer's body online, im glad dat i didnt spend my money to go to Cathay to watch.Got quite a no. of intimate and bloody scenes.But overall ok la, not scary lol.Even though it's supposed to be a horror movie.

Alrights, gotta sleep now:) Ciaos!~

2009-11-08T19:41:00.002+08:00

My mum is nice to me again hohoho=x she's nice when she's not nagging.:)
I wrote my previous post in a spur of the moment.JUst hope dat her "niceness" will last.:)

hmm....today, we had blood drive at yck cc.There's quite a number of ppl donating blood today:) The response was good! Probably due to Amirah and me giving out flyers.It sure works wonders.Wahaha!

I didnt donate my blood cos my weight cmi.I nid to be at least 45kg.

2009-11-07T21:37:00.007+08:00

oh damn it, i hate my mom. Keep comparing me to others, keep making stories up in front of my dad, keep on saying sarcastic and INSENSITIVE things!!

Dun believe dat i will switch off the lights, she just dun believe in me!

I ALREADY tried and noted to switch off the lights alr.WHY CANT U just STOP nagging and leave me alone??! Damn...

Yea right, she loves to push all the blame to me, even when she accidentally falls down and claims dat it's my fault.Hah, =.=

Sure, she can be nice at times, but she can be so evil sometimes.I just CANNT understand!

She thinks she's right all the time and needs somebody like me, her junior, daughter, to point out her flaws to her.

I hate to say this but She can be such a bitch sometimes.

2009-11-06T21:27:00.006+08:00

It has been quite some time since i've blogged.Somehow,I've lost the interest to blog nowadays...i aint' gonna force myself to blog and blog for the sake of only blogging!i shall blog when i feel like it!:)

Today marks the end of PW after our oral presentations!!!YaY!No more PW ANYMORE!:)
Though i may not do as well as i expect myself to.Stunned a bit during the speech, and my Q & A isnt done well. The qn gave by the assessors were hard..i was somehow stunned by the qn, but managed to crap some...but i only mentioned 2 pts.

I hope dat i can get a B Grade, i will be contented liaos, dun give me C Grade plsssssss, getting an A grade is not possible since i got stunned a bit, but managed to recover quickly...

Hmm...today after OP, 13 of us, if im NOT wrong, went to watch the movie Sister's keepers at AMK Hub Cathay....hmm....i got cry at the middle part...but overall,it ISNT' really VERY moving la....OKOK only haha.Afterwhich, we went to have dinner at S-11 at amk.

i want to watch My Girlfriend is an Agent and Jennifer's Body!

2009-10-27T21:48:00.002+08:00

Arghhh....my mum keeps feeding me food, LOL!Gonna get fat!lol

hmm... today got principal's talk....quite motivating and i got to reflect on myself for a couple of minutes...totally in a serious mood and i feel like im gonna perservere and not give up.

What separates high-achievers from average people is their response to failure.

We just have to pick ourselves up after faltering along the way.

Lesson learnt #1: Learn from your mistakes
Lesson learnt #2: Humility, be open to new ideas and knowledge.
Lesson learnt #3: Be POSITIVE!Learn to see things in a positive light and move
forward from there.

Lesson learnt #4: Do your best, such that i will NOT have any regrets!(dignity gained)

Most importantly,If Other people can do it, so can I!

2009-10-22T18:37:00.010+08:00

i cried ytd until my eyes were swollen this morning when i woke up, after being reprimanded by my elder bro over some window live messenger error...kinda depressing...i did search of how to solve the error, but he said dat i didnt put in any effort at all to find, saying dat im always finding the easy way out. I feel so maligned...i did put in effort, i spent hours!!!But it may be dat i couldnt really judge properly, cos the internet is very dangerous nowadays and im so gullible and all!Hais! His words can be so hurting and cruel sometimes...just cut through my heart...and also just thinking of how my promo results couldnt meet the promotion criteria just makes me feel so depressed...the stress dat has been building up in me cause me to just break down and cry......

Therefore, this morning when i woke up, my eyelids were swollen...and luckily i woke up and spent half an hr trying to use ice cubes with handkerchief to lessen and soothe my swollen eyelids, thankfully, the swollenness of my eyelids has gone down quite a bit, and it is not dat obvious dat my eyelids are swollen.

Im happy to know dat ppl r concerned for me and tried to console me.....those who r not my classmates and just acquaintances of mine, whom i have not known for a long time, as well as my classmates.....Yeap, im happy to know dat i've made great friends, at least at this phase of my life.

You know, sometimes, i feel im so insignificant and so insecure at times.i tend to put on a false front in front of my friends, becos of my pride,acting to be strong when in fact, im not.All i've ever wanted in my life is to have ONE true best friend to confide to, but at this stage of my life, i've not found one yet, i feel so ashamed...while looking at others, who seemed to be so close to one another and are best friends, im feeling so envious of them.

Im one who believes in treating others the way they treat me and i will definitely give my 100% to ppl who r good to me, but sometimes, ppl just take u for granted and dun appreciate u.

Not to mention the fact that i haven told my elder bros and parents about my results, about the predicament i am in, the fact that i MAY retain this yr.....see whether or not, i am given a chance to retest...i wonder how their reaction might be when i've told them...

I feel so apologetic to my elder bros, really, i couldnt match up to ur expectations of getting "As", really, i couldnt even manage a pass at this stage...im terrified......im not like my elder bros, sometimes, i feel so envious of them for being so intelligent....i did put in the effort, but u know wad, during the exam, my mind got stucked again, i panic and my blurrness got the better of me.Becos of a little minor blurrness on my part, i got the rest of dat qn wrong.....i feel unjustified, it's not dat i cannot do, HAIS!Some other qns too.......

I am not able to take stress very well(stress from my family, my elder siblings and peer pressure), and i always cried over my results,im such a crybaby, but i cant help it, i cannot control my EMOTIONS!Last time i used to cry very often, so often that my eyelid has grown a small bump and my parents took me to the eye specialist to get my bump removed! It was a minor surgery to extract that small bump, i was really scared dat time...that was when i finally got to persuade my parents after nagging so many times, that they finally agreed to bring me to the eye specialist. You know how my parents are like, so superstitious and believing in chinese physicians and all, before going to the eye specialist, they just said dat my small bump at my eyelid was due to heatinness and it will soon go away naturally,just drink more liang teh,but it never did!

Later, my eye specialist gone on to explain dat the small bump in my eyelid was developed as a result of me crying too often, dat explains it ALL!

2009-10-19T17:26:00.003+08:00

Watch Super Junior cross-dressing as girls, dancing to the song "Gee" from Girls' Generation

2009-10-19T16:23:00.005+08:00

My com is ok alr since i've reformatted my com and deleted everything! LOL.
Now can use alr and i dun have to use my bro's com anymore! CHEERS!:)

Oh ya, today is supposedly class outing(to watch the movie 500 days of summer), but i forgone the outing today to reformat my com, it really takes ages to install everything back! Patience is a virtue! I just have to wait patiently lor....
Even though i really wanted to go and watch with my classmates....no choice,bo bian
>_< Some of my classmates r not gg too, since they have to do pw......

Nonetheless, im really really happy to have my com back, even though im still not sure whether all of my com's problems have been resolved yet.

2009-10-17T22:02:00.003+08:00

It has been quite some time since i've blogged.My com is down, so im using my bro's com temporarily.Bored, bored, feeling so bored without my com, hahas.i can only use my bro's com for awhile.im so looking forward to watching the movie with my classmates this Monday, which is a sch-holiday in lieu of Deepavali.We'll probably be watching the movie 500 days of summer.Oh wells, since it's a class outing, we'll have to accomodate the others.Even though i wanted to watch horror movies,some of my classmates r too scared to watch, haha.So, i guess, it's ok, since i love watching movies of the romance and comedy genres as well.:)

2009-10-11T20:50:00.010+08:00

Oh My, today, i flared up at my mum again...i really shouldnt have done that. It so happens that i slept alot today, and due to pure boredom, since my com was temporarily down(pc power supply problems again!, i slept and slept.My mum was trying to wake me up to eat lunch and i flared up at her.Maybe the hot weather in the afternoon has caused me to lose my temper and whenever, i suffer from lack of sleep or have headaches, i will just flare up all of a sudden, not to mention my bad temper.Lol, my mum is like dat too! So we will just start bickering all over again.The vicious cycle!

haha, everytime i did that, i will start to feel guilty of my own actions, like now, and sometimes i will just start to shed tears in the middle of the night while thinking abt such stuff.haha>_< i really ought to reflect on my own actions and get rid of my bad temper.

There's like 2 sides of me and they overlap each other.They r like such opposites characters.One is the shy and quiet self.(That's when sometimes, i feel really patient)The other is the fun-loving,impulsive and bad-tempered side of me.Sometimes, i let the other side of me show. It really depends on my mood that day.

In fact, im just trying to be Me right now.i really like to have fun and i ABSOLUTELY hate the feeling of getting ignored by others.

2009-10-10T12:50:00.005+08:00

i've come to realise what's impt, and what's not. I've come to appreciate my mum more instead of bickering with her all day in the past.It's getting on my nerves.Something just had to be done on my part. I shouldnt rebuke her and now, i seem to appreciate all the little things she have done for our family, such as cooking a simple meal, etc.Really, she took the effort and i should acknowledge the effort.

I have to be more filial!My parents r getting old, *sudden realisation* and i feel guilty.
I shall do more research so as to convince my stubborn and overbearing father to drop his superstitious acts, acts that will be detrimental to his health and my health(ext.costs to third parties,learnt from econs haha)
I promised myself to do that.

It's gonna get busier from now on, with the pw stuff and OP, and since i've joined the YEC, i have to set aside some time for dat, and oso other mediocre stuff.And i have to work on my GP Reading file, seriously, highlight all those articles and do some real mindmaps.Otherise, i will really be disappointing myself.I've not been performing to my own expectations.

I really wish that i will not retain this yr, cause i knew i could do so much better.

i still rmb what Ms Aishah, my pri 4 teacher wrote in my diary:" Do your best and perservere when things don't go your way. Don't disappoint ur parents and most importantly, dont disappoint yourself!" .I will always rmb this.Cos im one who will give up easily when i face obstacles and i will use this to spur myself on.I will PERSERVERE ON!

2009-10-10T12:43:00.003+08:00

Ate subway for Dinner and Watched the Movie: Fame at Amk Cathay ytd, after the last physics paper with my clique gals and a few other girls in my class The movie was great!!! i give thumbs up for it!=P

2009-10-02T23:18:00.001+08:00

Time really flies man, gotta buck up and fasten my reins!

2009-10-02T18:54:00.009+08:00

This video is really funny man, watch it! hahas, i bet u will LOL:)

Love this song<3333=DDDD Taeyang sing so nice~~~~~~:DD

2009-10-02T17:43:00.000+08:00

2NE1 Fever~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-10-01T22:22:00.010+08:00

Im wondering why i still cannt let go....感情的执著...hais, i hate tis side of me.

Going to mug maths tmr.Tmr morning study chem again.Oh wells, let nature take its course xD

2009-09-28T22:46:00.006+08:00

moody~~~ and tired~~~~Ohmy, Physics mock paper is so hard!!!!!T_T

Sry arhs, recently i've been quite emo but i try to stay cheerful when i go to sch=)
Not happy also must act happy hahahas.Soon, this blog will become an emo blog, LOLS KIDDING LAH!hahaha=P

But im looking forward to the last folk dance this term which is tmr!Hopefully got dance session tmr, hahas,if nt very sian in sch, i urgently nid to relieve some stress, even though i haven done much revision!Hais...T_T

Note to self: I must buck up hor!!JIAYOUS!I Shall not let some stupid guy disturb me studying.lols,I'm not gg to continue misleading him, giving him false hopes, im gg to ignore him!

2009-09-22T20:44:00.002+08:00

Guess what? Im late again today!!! i hate Me with my bad habits!!!Hais...i must really change this bad habit of mine dat has stayed with me for years!
I must resolve to NOT be late for sch ANYMORE!

Shall not be lazy and i will wake up at 5.45am everyday!Then confirm plus guarantee chopslam wont be late!hahaha.LOL

2009-09-21T21:27:00.007+08:00

i dun feel dat this blog is private anymore, oh wells,all i can say dat is Im not ready for a relationship yet......and im having confused feelings, maybe i've not gotten over my first love yet.

Now is not the time to ponder over all these....these are really unneccessary!Studies to me, is the most important. I must not disappoint others and definitely,NOT disappoint MYSELF!

2009-09-20T23:20:00.001+08:00

Oh man, i made a guy cry just now.lol!

2009-09-15T18:12:00.011+08:00

This blog just isnt' private anymore:( Maybe i will make this into a private blog sometime soon.I feel uneasy.

Can i be honest with my feelings?It's as if i have to bury my feelings deep inside my heart, there are just too many considerations, what if i said it out, then wad will happen? im scared of offending the person... i hate this feeling of uncertainty.

Maybe...it's just the problem with me.I guess there is no other way, other than to learn how to accept dat person!

I've been arguing with my mum recently over trivial matters! She just likes to pick fights with me-.-. i dun have the energy to fight with her alr la.LoL

And there is the feeling of admiration for someone...more like a crush.OMG,i realised i like his smile!But for now, i will just bury it deep inside my heart.

Dun EVER ask me who i've had a crush on or who i hate to offend.i will say it if im ready to tell u and i've decided dat im able to trust u.I just have to overcome the barrier inside my heart.So sorry...i just hate ppl who tease me abt the person i like!It's kinda like a phobia,i guess it takes time to heal frm the old wounds...

For now, i shall just put everything aside & concentrate on my studies!Promos is just ard the corner!I dun wan myself to regret and i dun wan to cry over spilt milk.
GOGOGO!

2009-09-13T13:57:00.001+08:00

Long time nvr post le...dun really feel like posting hahas...

Recently,I bought a 2GB MP3 at Comex IT Fair at Sunetc Singapore on fri for $69.It's considered quite cheap alr...the mp3 design quite nice...im contented with it, hahas.:) At IT fair, always can buy for a lower price. I've been wanting one for ages, so i guess, one of my wishes has finally been fulfilled. But i bought it using my own $$ of cos, because my parents want us to be independent since im very young, so a lot of things, i used my own $$ to buy...quite sad..LOL.

FINALLY YAY! With the mp3, i can FINALLY SHUT OFF the irritating voices and conversations of those inconsiderate ppl in the library and on the buses.WAHAHAHA:)

2009-09-04T22:49:00.005+08:00

I have resolved that i will work really hard this sep holiday,making full use of each moment! starting frm now.

Btw, the study log really sux sia, so little space, cannt even write down the times and schedule of the whole day, really sux.LoL.

Pw,Pw,Pw, one word to describe:SUX.LOL,hais....

I Must Jiayous!I cannot give up half-way! must perservere all the way! im gonna wake up at 8am everyday to do hw,study by hook or by crook. Hope dat i will stay focused and be disciplined enough to complete my task.Just Wait and See!

However, all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.lol.There must be time set aside for some entertainment and laughing sessions & maybe some sweet treats for myself.Yay:)

Impt Note at the end of the day: Make full use of the time! Everyone makes mistakes and have a moment of folly, but what's impt is to learn frm ur mistakes and pick urself up after it.=D

Stay Positive!

2009-09-02T16:25:00.001+08:00

i went shopping with Lianne ytd at bugis street and bugis junction, bought a new bag, sneakers and a dress!

2009-08-31T20:28:00.009+08:00

Some interesting and funny pics to cheer u up =D :

1.Future ruffian boss

2.This boy very playful, it happens dat he was taken to the doctor to have his insomnia cured by connecting wires to the machines and he was ALL MAKING goofy faces, TRYING TO SCARE HIS POOR MOTHER, lol.

3.Somehow these ppl are being hypnotized and this is wad happens when they fall into a deep sleep

Notice the boy falls off the chair...LOL,

and notice the others' sleeping positions

4.Synchronised Sleeping..LOL...this is nt faked, it's real, taken by somebody...It's just AMAZING how This can actually happen in real life, NOT in DRAMAS!

5.i find this pic very cool.
Depicts hw somebody can actually die from playing too much of computer games and not sleeping!

AND FINALLY!Some Cuties pics!=DDDD

And here's the PROMISED Photo of Edmund Chen Zhi Cai and his son at the red cross
60th anniversary at East Coast Park!

We only managed to take a rdm shot though...hahas.

2009-08-31T14:39:00.006+08:00

Went back to A.I.S.S my sec sch to visit teachers just now.Most of the teachers have left alr,so i only get to meet Ms.Nah,Mr Yong and Mr kumar ONLY!HAIS!Also, ms tan and Mdm Koh have left A.I. alr,they r teaching elsewhere.:(They are my most beloved teachers but i dun get to meet them!

Today i went back and saw andrew and zi feng who r in poly.I seriously wonder would it be better if i went to poly in the 1st place? i kinda of regretted coming to ajc,the mugger sch...lols...even though ppl say i look like the jc-type and i wanted to go there,but i really cannt take the stress and seeing andrew lolz,poly is like so good, so happy....so slack lol,but they've gt tons of projects too!but still...as compared to aj here, it's still million times better!!!Poly is also nt bad, my 2nd eldest bro and my mum asked me to go poly cos they know dat i cant take the stress lol, but i insisted to go ajc.see lah????

S.I.A.N,sianz.What to Do? dun really feel like studying, im SUCH A LAZY GAL!i've always disliked studying,studying always makes me stressed up, all along, i've been forcing myself to study and always doing last-min work, which is NOT GOOD!i like to slack and have fun!WHO LIKES TO STUDY LOL.BUT...

I know i shld really start to learn to love studying!Only with studying hard and SMART!Only then can i pass my promos and finally my a lvls and i SERIOUSLY NEED TO GET INTO UNIVERSITY!My bros r waiting for me there.LOL

i wannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnt to study jap language in university.GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I SHALL BE A GOOD GIRL AND STUDY!!!

Ohya, today's performance for the teacher's day celebration can be described by one word.AWESOME!!!
omg la, esp. the Moonwalk performed by shubham's friend,the Indian scholar was PLAIN AWESOME!!!!i didnt know he was dat talented, he had brains and was able to dance so well! OMG.i now see him in a different light.lols.

2009-08-30T22:56:00.010+08:00

ytd i slacked frm 5pm all the way to 10pm lol, watching anime, chionging bleach,07-GHOST episodes.so i decided to spend my sun wisely.

nth much today...i just went to yck cc for the bgm meeting at ard 2.30pm until 4+pm after which i went to amk library to do oscillations remedial qns.YEA BY MYSELF.LOL, i prefer to study alone but sometimes when i really nid to clarify my doubts, i nid someone to consult.But it was like equally noisy in the library, cos gt a group of guys chit-chatting so loudly just behind where im sitting!zzz, couldnt stand them, but yet, i've to learn how to tolerate and learn to train my concentration, esp. in times like this!! oh ya, our ajc sch library is oso very noisy,LOL!last week lahs, i went there to chiong integration tut. then some jc2s keep tok tok tok FOR A WHOLE 2 HouRs!, lol!it was very distracting!

Duno why they even went to the library in the 1st place, if all they did was to chit-chat, disturbing other ppl who r trying hard to concentrate.-.-

i've been feeling temperamental for this past week,i've been getting angry easily,lols, partly due to my family, inconsiderate ppl out there and maybe also due to the built-up stress inside me.i really nid to learn to ctrl my emotions, otherwise, u may just see me flaring up for no reason in sch.lol.

i hope dat i can just let all these troubles go away.and i will be cheerful and happy tmr.i will try...

but sometimes, i really dun feel like toking, cos of my family problems.it's just too complicated.u can hardly imagine wad i've gone thru,unlike u all.Beneath my quiet exterior,i've actually gone thru alot of things in my childhood days.I've nt yet found someone dat i can fully confide to.

I really really hope dat SOMEDAY i will find this someone.:)Someone who WILL be able to understand my situation and not rub salt on it.

2009-08-29T22:46:00.001+08:00

Bleach 233 and 234 is damn exciting!I've just finished watching until 234.We get to see the other hollow form of Kurosaki Ichigo!Exciting!=D and they fight!

2009-08-29T22:46:00.000+08:00

Bleach 233 and 234 is damn exciting!I've just finished watching until 234.

2009-08-29T15:00:00.000+08:00

i have the sudden urge to complete alot of things.JYJYS!

2009-08-28T17:56:00.004+08:00

It SUCK having elder brothers who ask u to shut up all the time!-.-
Wth is wrong with them?Keep calling me idiot.T_T im extremely displeased with these stupid brothers of mine!And my father??? Keep shouting and like so buey song whenever things dun go his way, such as the printer just broke down just NOW.

I will flare up any second.

2009-08-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

hais....pimples woes...D: they are infesting on my face!LOL, so many little pimples start to pop up AGAIN!, maybe im overly stressed up.face feel itchy.:(

2009-08-24T22:08:00.005+08:00

Today's maths lecture test was REALLY GG le la!Despite having studied so hard for this test, i didnt know hw to do the qns....=.= and my panic took the better of me today!duno y, i suddenly feel very nervous today when i was taking the test, cos im like stunned dat i couldnt do majority of the qns!

It all comes down to me not having enough maths practice and i REALLY need to control my emotions and keep calm at all times!Where did my usual calmness go???LOL x_x

Not to mention dat today during maths remedial,im extremely SUPER DUPER blurrr, keep doing careless mistakes,+sign become -sign.then keep asking maureen to help me check.i check until like pek chek.LOL =.= What's wrong wif me today? This is so NOT ME.haha like real.LOL, enough of me being lame, hahahas

Im feeling really lethargic & dead-beat now and my neck and shoulders really ache after having sat in front of the com desk doing my maths integration tutorial while singing along to songs played constantly in my com.haha.:)

but now, im really tired.

2009-08-23T20:16:00.003+08:00

IU, Lee Ji Eun is my idol~~~~~~~

She's 1 yr younger than us and yet, she sings so well!Im so amazed!And she's so cute and pretty!

Okays, back to studying!!!LOL! im dam rdm hahahas=DD
Gotta prepare for tmr's maths lect.test.

cannt post pics, cannt post videos>_<

nxt time bahs.

2009-08-19T19:42:00.000+08:00

zzz....my father is shouting(vulgarities) again=.= He's in such a bad mood.

2009-08-18T20:40:00.002+08:00

Life is Never Fair.

I just hate extremely uncouth ppl, spouting vulgarities all the time.=.= couldnt stand it, lol,yea, someday, im gonna explode.

2009-08-16T11:34:00.004+08:00

Finally finished reading You Are So Cool Manga!It is 41 chapters long!I like the main storyline but the yaoi moments of the side characters turns me off at times.

However, this series is freaking hilarious. With nan-woo being so airheaded and her actions are so hilarious,seeing her and Seung-Ha together arguing at times just makes me laugh my head off.Seung Ha just loves to see Nan Woo's reactions, doesn't he?

At first, the art style didnt really catch my attention but as i read on, the art style seems to be getiing better and better.At first, I thought Nan Woo wasn't too pretty, but as the series goes on, she has better and better hair and clothes. Amazing.

With some interesting twists and more depth to the story than you might guess at first, You're So Cool had me hooked right through to the last page.

Summary of the manga:
Everyone dreams about Seung-Ha, the perfect prince, the shining star of the school. Chasing after the perfect prince is definitely not easy. For Nan-Woo, Seung-Ha was just a dream far, far away. However, sometimes dreams exist to come true! But when Nan-Woo’s dream comes true, it comes at an expensive price. Who knew the perfect prince was actually a big jerk?!

So it starts with a kinda typical romance manga outline,with a hot guy and the girl who's in love with him of course. But then there's this funny twist and it begins to get more amusing than the average manhwa. The character build up is good as well and i find myself getting moved by those many philosophical moments.

I like the ending when Nan Woo bumps into Seung Ha again, just like she did the first time. It's really very cute.And the scene when Nan-Woo reminiscened about how she met Seung-Ha the 1st time is freaking hilarious.

I shall post pictures and several manga scenes of this manga when blogger is back to normal lolz.

2009-08-12T20:07:00.009+08:00

Grp photo taken when we went to Hort Park the other day:D( Above)

2009-08-12T19:38:00.007+08:00

Today physics a lvl spa quite ok ba,not difficult, but then i got careless mistakes due to negligence and blurness today..today, i feel very restless hahas,but i've managed to keep myself awake throughout the lectures.Sooo...i wasted 3m for spa!!!

1m for units of P, which i only realised immediately after handing in my paper!
1m for having only 5 measurements cos....cannt say lahs>_< if nt im telling u the qn alr
1m for the table bah, cos i think i didnt put in correct dp for one calculated value.
DAMN!OMG LA, so wasted sia!=(

SaddenedX_X Then today lunch, i also dont have the appetite!But i forced myself to eat finish the food!xD How could i ever waste food when those poor children in africa dont even get to consume sufficient nutrients from food and r facing extreme starvation!We r doing so little to help them?!

Today red x quite sian as usual, lolz.what can u expect??? Nicholas and Gabriel went thru the triage theory test answers and we were released VERY early ard 3.30pm, after which i and other members of cip have cip meeting cum discussion.

Afterwhich, i went to the aj library to chiong finish vectors 3! FINALLY FINISHED!LOL

2009-08-11T20:20:00.001+08:00

JYS,JYS XiuLing! CHiongggggggg arh!!!!=DDDDDDDDDDDDD

2009-08-10T15:47:00.002+08:00

im SO going to the Singapore Toy,Games & Comics Convention(13-16th august)!Hehes=DDDD

Here's the link:http://www.singaporetgcc.com/aboutstgcc.html

Most probably going with sophie and another friend this sat(15th august)!

It's the 1st time they r holding the exhibition here in s'pore! with all those foreign designers of cartoon,toys etc coming to s'pore, showcasing their art!

Weeee~So excited!:D

But now, i've to worry about my hw and phy spa this wed.>_<

2009-08-09T17:47:00.001+08:00

Dong Hae from Super Junior Rox! Totally Prince Charming Type=DDDD

2009-08-09T10:37:00.002+08:00

Cannt log into ivle. Damn.....>_<

2009-08-08T22:55:00.004+08:00

It's alright,im okay alr:) dun worry,just had some mental breakdown just now, but after reading my fav.manga,skip beat, i felt better and so much released from agony.

That's just how my mood swings are, LOL, let me just forget my worries and family and relationship problems for awhile.

2009-08-08T20:38:00.013+08:00

I've been sensitive lately....and i feel dat the distance between us is getting further and further...and i absolutely hate the feeling of getting ignored!i cannt get myself to confront dat person, so im writing it here!im such a coward!....:(

Sometimes,ppl are just not sensitive enough and say things that hurt me and i detest not being appreciated by ppl.Why? i really feel this way nowadays, u cannt blame me for feeling unhappy.There r just too many things on my mind.Perhaps, im just too sensitive and u dun really mean it.But do u know dat im very emotionally fragile and will be hurt easily?

i hate ppl for taking me for granted.i admit dat im not very intelligent,just avg-looking,but this doesnt mean dat u can take me for granted,yeah? i feel dat im reverting back to my good old days, when ppl think dat they can fathom me dat easily when they don't even know the REAL ME!They assume they know, just by looking at my face,dat innocent and guai looking type of face!!i ain't dat easy to bully, OK?

And i hate my elder brother for saying dat im stupid and ugly!!T_T

It's strange sometimes u know, when somebody becomes exceptionally good to u when they r usually mean to u.

And just in case if u haven met any hypocrites in ur life, i have.

There's smthing in me dat will burst up if i bottle all these up inside my mind!

My life just sux.i hate others judging ppl by their appearances but it is reality!

To my Brother!(angry) i will definitely not disgrace u,i've alr deleted all ur friends and gfs from my fb connection!

sry ppl, this is an emo post.

2009-08-07T20:55:00.012+08:00

Today i went to Hort Park with several of my classmates:Maureen,Li Shi,Jacq,Ying Chyi and Anna.

Here are pics of food included in our so called "picnic".Fuji Apples:)

Our 1st time handmade sandwiches!woohoo~

Brownies! It's used to celebrate for Li Shi belated birthday 4 days ago~

Here are some of my considered successful attempts at taking pics of Hort Park,ENJOY:)

It's a beautiful park, isn't it???:D
More pics to come~stay tuned~:D

2009-08-06T20:21:00.004+08:00

Helping Dad to type quotation for his renovating business right now:) Haha,Sianz>_<

Tmr is celebration for National Day and we r released at 10am.Hurray!Yay, get to sing national day songs tmr hahas....love singing:)

Going jacq's hse tmr to make food for our picnic at Hort Park.LOL

2009-08-05T20:00:00.003+08:00

hmm, met Chang Yu in the bus interchange today...and took 812 bus together...chatted about stuff...

Nth really special today, it's as per normal, went to the sch library to finish up vectors after red x ended.Oh ya, today red x gt triage theory test, i think my case study answer all crap de la,omg lols,and we learn how to open and set up the stretcher and even got to move jialin ard(whom is on the stretcher,fake-casualty haha:)) .hmm...pretty fun:)and the kicking part was fun! LOL(P.S.You have to kick the metal thingy in order to keep and open the stretcher),ok larhs,gotta go bathe and continue chionging hw le!Ja-Ne!

=DDDDDDDDDDDD

2009-08-04T21:35:00.006+08:00

tired, tired, im always tired.

i've been trying VERY hard to keep myself awake during econs lect. and chem extra lesson today....sigh..why am i so sleepy?? and the teacher's voice is sooooo hypnotizing...the feeling of being sleepy really sux...

ok la, due to lack of sleep!i've been sleeping like 12am EVERY SINGLE DAY!See my huge eyebags???(sobsx_x)and i couldnt stand it liaos,gonna try sleeping early...i must chg my bad habit!!!there r just so many faults in me dat i hav to correct...most importantly,I MUST NOT BE LATE FOR SCH!!!!then i must rush like mad,run like mad to sch everytime, so UNGLAM!ok tmr, i definitely will NOT be late!

2009-08-03T19:48:00.005+08:00

Plans on this fri changed!!! Initially, i and maureen wanted to go ice-skating, but oh wells, jacq and ying chyi dun wan..so....i somehow became the organiser for fri lah, hahas!:)

Okay, PPL!We shall be going to Hort Park instead!The scenery there very nice and the flowers are gorgeous too!!Guys,RMB to bring along ur cameras to take pictures of flowers there!Details of how to get there will be provided until a later date!Preferably, we will all go there together!Oh mans, im so excited to go see the flowers there too!! =DDDD I saw the pictures of attractions at hort park on9 and it was very beautiful there!=DDD

ok, we shall take lots of pics there!=DD

2009-08-01T19:56:00.003+08:00

Went to East Coast Park to do duty for the red x carnival. I was the blood exhibition helper and walk participant.Overall it was fun!I was in charge of helping in the snake and ladder blood donation game.It was really troublesome and annoying to take care of the kids while they were playing the blood donation snake and ladder game, i was refering to dat one whole grp of little mischievous boys, they seem to be overly hyperactive and it was damn hard to control them.They kept running all over the place!haha, but ok la, cos got goodie bags and prizes for playing the game and finally, i can take some of the prizes home hahas...the hello kitty Reversible Dear Daniel McFlurry..and i got 2 of them!!YAY!SO CUTEE!=D my friend dun wan so she gave one to me, plus i have one too!That makes two!haha, i sound VERY TYPICAL SINGAPOREAN, "tan xiao pian yi in chinese", hahas...ppl give me, then i just take lorrr...hahas:)

And i saw the good-looking, "look like Ming Dao (from 183 club)" guy AGAIN!haha!!!really very funny haha...furthermore, my friend say i look abit like dat guy lol!!!LOL, WHERE GOT!!VERY FUNNY LAHS.LOL, but he really very shuai lehs, not badxD, i saw him since the last time from the siluk competition, im not sure hw to spell, but it sounds like dat.haha, then jun shu tok abt her 帅帅 from the siluk competition lol..

I enjoyed the sea breeze while at the beach at east coast park, while chatting with Jun Shu.haha, i realised we really had alot in common, orh, i meant our tastes in both guys and stuff.hahas:)COOL~

Overall, today is considered quite fun-filled alr:) And OH YA, i forgot to mention that i saw Edmund Chen Zhi Cai and his son at the red x carnival today!!!omg, his son quite shuai lahs, hahas..:) we should have taken pictures with them, but they were gone after lunch and i had to do my duty.Sigh!>_< what a pity.

hehes=D

2009-07-31T20:07:00.007+08:00

It's gonna be hectic this weekend.>_<

My schedule:
1st August(Sat): Red X Carnival @ Marine Cove
2nd August(Sun): Yiolympics National Day Observance Ceremony @ YCK Stadium!

Haiz, still have to do my endless list of tutorials and hw!

But, national day is coming! Yays, and we will be dismissed early nxt fri, at 10am!Hoorays! And me and my clique are going to Kallang to ice-skate!!!WooHoooo!!I've never tried ice-skating b4 but i can rollerskate.But still, im soooo excited!HAHAS:)

Okays, here's how my day today goes:

Chem Pre-Spa is so screwed up for me...im not sure how to do the calculations and my titre readings were like so far away from the other's readings.OMG Sia!!:( but luckily, this is just pre-spa, hopefully this doesnt happen in the real spa!which is about 2 and a 1/2 weeks away!

Anyway, something interesting today is dat Mr Arthur Lim released us damn early today!if nt, we have to torture ourselves running around the field and doing all those exercises, like what we would do during pe usually.I was totally stunned, couldnt believe it!!!Perhaps, this is due to the PTM today.But wahhahaha, the guys were not spared from their pe!!!HAHAHA!!ONLY THE GALS!!It's really a miracle hahaha!! i bet they were all so envious of the gals,hahas...and as we were dismissed, all of the gals really cheered very loudly cos we didnt have to do pe at all!!haha, but this is for those who passed their Napfa Test.And the guys' expressions were really hilarious hahas...they were LIKE TOTALLY STUNNED TOO!!!hahas!!

After which, i went to Ang Mo Kio Library to mug...hahas lols..and i borrowed one storybk=):Geek Magnet.Long time never read romance genre storybks alr,and i have still yet to finish all those manga bks Wan ting have lent to me..hahas...

Alright, i must manage my time properly.Shall go and chiong hw now, cos tmr nid to wake up really early and there's nt much time this wkend to complete my hw!!Ciaos, Aja Aja Fighting!!!:)

2009-07-27T21:33:00.006+08:00

Today, i will talk about the topic Love.

You know you're in love when u constantly remember the person's face and smile on ur mind and when u think "OMG, his smile is so cutee!"Sometimes,i really wish i had a boyfriend whenever i came upon couples behaving lovey-dovey.But it's just NOT so simple.There are just too many things weighing on my mind and many considerations too.Besides, im definitely incapable of coping with studies and my commitments.

So, what's the difference between infatuation, crush and yr true love? Do you know? True love is hard to define and even hard to come by.It's actually interesting to see how ppl see these terms.So here are some quotes from others about THEIR definition of a crush/infatuation and real love:

"The simple answer is, you just do! It's like no other feeling you have ever experienced. You can't stop thinking about the person; your heart skips a beat every time you see them. You don't care about anything else, and would do anything in the world for that person. You click on every level: hobbies, personality, likes, dislikes. It's the most amazing feeling in the world! I don't believe there is such a thing as love at first sight. I think there is attraction at first sight but you truly have to know a person to fall in love with them. That is the difference between love and a crush. Chances are if you are infatuated with someone or have a crush on them you don't really know that person and the street is one way (you have feelings but they don't feel the same). True love is a two-way street -- the other person feels the same way about you as you feel about them." (Beth, 30)

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"When you are in love you will just know it. There is no formula or logic to love. You just feel it in your heart, your mind, and your soul. The feeling is something you can't describe but can arise at any moment, triggered by a memory, a word or a thought of that special person. The difference between a crush/infatuation and real love is that a crush is someone you may forget about during the course of a day/week/month. Someone you may think of a few moments from time-to-time that you can do fun things with such as dates, dinner, and movies. A real love is someone that you cannot live without, someone who is constantly on your mind, day in and day out. It's someone you can't wait to talk to next. Someone who you can't wait to see for whatever reason!" (Michael, 45)

"I know I am in love with someone when I cannot control my feelings. When I cannot stop thinking of her -- then I know I feel love. If it is a crush or infatuation, then I know I can shut her off and think of someone else; even plan a date with another for a later time. But, if I cannot do that and do not want to see anyone else, continue to think of her all day into the night, look forward to seeing her again and put aside all others, I am in love. It has been wonderful when I have felt that way. I have had many a crush, but have been in love only a few times to the point of forsaking all others, including friends, to be with her." (Rick, 50)

So, now, do u have a better understanding of the terms? Hope you do:D

And there's the ideal criteria for ur ideal partner and we girls nowadays based it on the recent F4 Boys-over-flower show, all our prince-charming!:D

However,Nobody is perfect in this world.But at least to me, dat special someone must not spout vulgarities all the time and unnecessarily!which i apparrently detest,(okay,my father is a perfect eg lol, spouting vulgarities all the time in hokkien!it just shows how uncouth and ill-mannered you are!), and he must be sensitive to ur needs and feelings most importantly!

It's actually better to be single right now:) haha.At least, you dun have to ever worry about having several crushes and not being faithful to ur partner.haha=D

I shall post some cute and nice pics when blogger is back to normal,apparently, i cannt upload any pics now=x

2009-07-25T13:10:00.003+08:00

Starting frm today onwards, i will be going to either sch library or the national public library to study.Anybody can just join me if u want:)I have made this pact with my elder brother.And i wont ever get this kind of atrocious results again.Only Two more months to promos!JYS,JYS!

2009-07-21T22:25:00.005+08:00

hais....gosh,hate pimples and scars left behind by the pimples....i hope dat it will go away gradually...luckily it is not very visible...but nonetheless,i've been trying products to try to get rid of the scars left behind by the pimples...
my pimples started popping out and start scarring this yr even though i didnt even pop the pimple!it's so unfair...i only tried oxy-5 to get rid of breakouts...but dun apply too much, it will have some side-effects...like wad happen to my face...lol..hais...>_<

it seems as though those methods i've used to keep my face free of pimples up to sec 4 doesnt work now.....damn....how come this yr so problematic!pimples start to pop up like crazy..lolz..and worse still, leave ugly scars...-.-i will see how it goes...

and my shoulder is aching again!this prob has persisted for a long long time...when can i be relieved of this agony harh??x_x ever since pri6, i've been complaining of shoulder aches, partly due to the heavy backpack...the stretching exercises dun seem to work leh, i cannt feel dat that part of the shoulder muscles is being stretched...so painful....i just wish dat i can end everything right now...ok lah, i shall not be so pessismistic...i must stay positive...haha...im a very contradictory person..and very rdm also...hahas...lols:D

2009-07-21T17:07:00.005+08:00

Im saddened today by the fact that i fared so badly in my MYCT!my rank pts is only 16....omg..wth..

My sec sch friends who were not used to doing better than me now fared better than me...and i got one friend who passed all her subjects....hais...i ought to feel happy for her, but i cannt help but feeling envious...i wonder wad's the prob with me...for doing so badly...hais....>_<

Is it becos im slacking too much or wad??but some of the subjects i really studied but i stilll....did badly!wad's the prob with me!

Feel like crying right now...omg...i seriously have no mood to entertain my father, help him to write business quotation right now...Arghh........

lolz, i cried again..tears just roll down my eyes, i cant help it...i duno hw to face my elder brothers now...-.-

2009-07-20T20:18:00.002+08:00

Got terrible stomache again today morning, haha, but im okay now:)

2009-07-18T14:17:00.003+08:00

Just finished watching Transformers 1(i borrowed the DVD from Ying Chyi:D)..i must say Transformers 2:Revenge of the Fallen is better than transformers 1, but nonetheless, transformers 1 is still worth watching...

P.S:i watched transformers 2 in cinema only..hahas

Alright, gonna go chiong hw and tutorials after this, Ciaos!=D

2009-07-17T23:17:00.003+08:00

Im utterly and totally disappointed with my MYCT Results....i envy those who passes their subjects...and me?Im SUCH A SLACKER!LOL. i got 3 U grades...Oh My,Maths, physics and econs U!!Sobsx_x

I hope dat i can be as hardworking as some people, i will try to be...starting frm tmr...lols, i've ALWAYS been finding plenty of excuses for myself..my lazinness is catching up with me..lolz..haven been "really doing' tutorials, cos i've tried and attempted the qns, but i realise dat i do nt know hw to do most of the qns...it's nt dat i haven't been listening attentively to lectures, it's just i have STM-ness, really serious, and i will panic during exams...as for econs hor.. i think dat i dun really know wad the marker wants...since i fared really badly in the MYCT econs..the prob is nt dat i dun understand, it's just dat i didnt elaborate enough and be more specific...as i compare my way of answering with the model answer, my heart really takes a step back...GRRR....

And i cannt seem to resist watching drama shows and movies, as u can see dat i've watched finished My tutor Friend 1 and 2 movies today, straight after i've reached home at abt 5+pm.I 've ALWAYS been a TV Addict, drama and whatever show addict lah,ever since i was young, i will sort of "stick" and sit in front of the television and watch shows from morning to night during weekends.Lol, kinda of a habit and a hobby.

2009-07-17T22:34:00.004+08:00

My Tutor Friend II

I really like this pic hahas..Park Ki Woong looks so mischievous^^and cute~

The male Lead, Park Ki Woong is really cute and funny in tis movie.Especially his chicken and head moves.LOL!hahaha Soooooooooo Cutee=D ^^

2009-07-16T21:43:00.003+08:00

Oh Great!Finally finished my Eom after searching for articles for duno hw many hrs staring at the com ever since 2 days ago(including ytd).Oh My, lols.Finally found at least one decent article and decided to work on that.lols haven been practising good eye care habits, and my eyesight is bound to get worse...uhoh..i forgot i haven eat dinner lols,until my stomach starts growling 'grrr,grr,grrr'now, hahas gotta go eat now, Ja ne!

2009-07-16T14:47:00.002+08:00

Arghh...EOM...one problem comes after another....x_x

Apparently, i had diarrhea and stomache today, so i didnt go to sch today...
Now im feeling much better but have to chiong EOM!!!JIAYOUS BAH!Problematic girl(myself)!lols

2009-07-14T17:20:00.008+08:00

Hais....pw sux man!i feel dat my group progress is going nowhere!Ok lah, the main prob is the strategies, it is just not innovative enough!

And now with my mid-yr CT results,really really jialat...
I got 50/100 for gp, 29/50 for compre,21/50 for compo!(im really really disappointed with my compo la!worst score i've gotten so far for my compo!really a shock when i see dat my compo is full of grammatical mistakes!lols,cos i didnt check my compo, but the truth is dat i didnt have time to check!)

Chem i got Grade E, 49%:(
Physics is the worst! i got 22/90!!( U Grade !!Oh My, i really nid to buck up for my Physics!)aiyo, i didnt really study for physics and i kinda forgot some of the basics for physics lol when i panic during the exam, and omg, i did some STUPID RIDICULOUS careless mistakes for some of the phy kinematics qns which i shld have gotten correct! Im so sad...

Emo-ing..............................................................................

Maths and Econs results haven get back yet, but i guess maths sure fail la like dat(even though maths is the only subject dat i practised and studied during the holidays[i hate Ap,GP qns)....Econs(im quite confident b4 dat i can pass lol but after the teacher said most of us throughout the entire lvl did badly, i guess im the same la...SO NO HOPE LE:(

Yeah, i realised dat i couldnt study the same way NOW in jc as i did when i was in secondary sch, i always slack last time(i spend most of my time watching anime and dramas), slack oso can get quite gd results last time lols, but NOW its a NO-NO!!!

Meaning that now i must really focus entirely for my Promos, which is approximately 2.5mths away, 53 days away from econs promo...

I MUST BE DETERMINED AND MUST AVOID AND OVERCOME MY DISTRACTIONS!
Today, i feel sad....i cried,so i ate the BOOST CHOCOLATE to cheer myself up:)
i always eat ice-cream when i am sad...hahas..but it's fattening>_<

i really don't want to retain, i wan to pass all of my subjects for my promos...SO I MUST WORK HARD NOW!

But i cannt resist cute things!!!LOL, i guess i'll on9 facebook less now, it's just as well! Since i've alr gotten tired of doing all those quizzes!!FACEBOOK IS REALLY EVIL SIA!i keep doing fb quizzes lol,but it kinda made me understand myself better for a little bit for the more accurate ones.

2009-07-09T18:54:00.007+08:00

I 've just watched My Boyfriend Is Type B movie online, this movie is quite old alr, it was screened in 2005.

Female Lead actress:Han Ji Hye

Male Lead:Lee Dong-Geon

Both of them really looked cute together.

Below are several screenshots from the movie:
First time when they met:

The words written on the table means "Is this Love"?

Their first date

Overall, the story plot for this movie is dull, but there are hilarious moments at times. It was cute!

2009-07-06T20:53:00.011+08:00

sigh...so totally hate my father, he's always.....so overbearing!!!zzzz....saying dat i watched too much romance shows, dat's why i cannot solve maths problems!!But hey, i really got practise alot for maths ok...i really worked very hard, but sometimes, i JUST CANNT SEE IT!CANNT SEE HOW TO SOLVE THE MATHS PROB!hate my father for accusing me.....EVERYTIME, POUR COLD WATER DOWN ON ME!!!thinking dat i cant do anything right!!!Plain biasedness!!And forbid me to watch, whathever~~he's always so unreasonable de la, everytime got wad show i wanna watch, he will just think he is more superior than me in terms of his status in the family and swtich the channel!!! watch variety shows oso cannt la!!always make me go back to my own room to watch shows on9...He doesnt know wad does it mean to destress!!!And my father is so full of rubbish!!always tok crap and act like a fool, making silly actions like a monkey,LOL!He himself can watch all those romance shows,why i cannot???

Aiyo, i oso dun wan to care le la...i will just try to avoid quarrelling with him!!!waste my breath and saliva!!! in the end, always making me so full of anger...zzz...make me mental breakdown until i cry!!!make me cry until eyes swollen,
-.-

Nxt time, i definitely dun wan my bf or husband to be like dat!!!so 大男人主义!!!Otherwise, 我早晚会被气死!!lols....我要忍!!!Hais, i must learn how to control my anger...i duno why i always get so angry when it comes to my father, but if YOU were Me, u will oso be like dat rite?he's just so overbearing la,to the extent dat i cannt tolerate le, im always telling myself to 忍,忍,忍!hais...sigh...duno,忍 how many years le???!!!aiyo-.-

Tell me, what should i do???

2009-07-05T21:55:00.009+08:00

Yay, today went to Far East Plaza to shop...bought 3 pretty dresses, 1 skirt and 1 accessory!!Yay!!!LOLS:)Spent $150+ in total lols, but all of this is from my hard-earned money from receiving scholarships, i worked VERY HARD!My mum shouldnt have any qualms abt it=x I've always wanted to use the money from my scholarships to buy things i want since my mum doesn't give me money to buy clothes and toys etc, ever since i was young!

After shopping at far east plaza, i and Lianne went to Bugis Junction(on the way to Illuma:Bugis newest shopping centre!), met Chang Yu when he suddenly saw me and called my name! I was so SHOCKED!!HAHA, he can recognise me when i just happen to walk by and he was eating at KFC.LOLS

Bought 1 baby plant handphone accessory, it was kinda special, it can grow!!!u just have to water it once every 2 weeks, the seller tell me de...:)It is called Baby Golden Sun Plant.Actually, i and Lianne dun have enough cash to buy the baby water plants, we wanted to atm, but the nearest atm machine is at bugis junction, and we are at Illuma, so it's not very convenient!Plus, it was raining quite heavily!So troublesome! But fortunately, the lady seller so good, she asked us how much we have, the baby plant costs $4.90 each,but i and lianne's cash added up to only $6+, 2 baby plants costs $9.80, so she said nvm, and said dat we just give her wad we have.HAHAHA, SO in the end, we have advantage.WAHAHHA...but the lady vendor said dat nxt time cannt like dat le...hahas..where got nxt time? we r not going there again lols...

As you can see from the pics, words can be seen from the exterior decor of Illuma shopping centre.But the words r not stagnant, they are constantly moving, so this actually makes this building kind of cool.:)

I expect Illuma shopping centre to be very crowded, but then, when we get there, we can see dat a lot of shops were not yet opened....there are 7 storeys in total at Illuma..it was quite beautiful lahs...and i SAW THE OTAKU HOUSE!Full of anime stuff!!Omg, forget to take pic there!LOLS,hahas nvm nvm>_< otaku house is a shop dat sells anime stuff, and they sell anime cosplay costumes there too!!What's so special abt dat shop is dat the sales promoter there for that shop wear anime costumes!!so kawaii!hahas...first time i saw lehhs..=)

2009-07-04T13:32:00.005+08:00

Yeah, exams are finally over....but i guess im so gonna flunk almost everything lols...my physics gg le la!!>_< i have to work harder from now on!!! for my promos!!approximately 3 mths later...sigh...my physics is damn lousy...i need to learn how to apply the physics concepts seriously!!

And im disappointed with my maths....sigh...ok la, i guess im gonna flunk it too..but i REALLY REALLY practised hard for my maths but then......=.=

Putting all the worries aside, ytd we(almost all the gals in my class and quite a few of the guys) went to watch Transformers 2:Revenge of the Fallen at AMK Hub after the physics paper. I must say dat Transformers 2 was REALLY AWESOME SIA!!!At first, i didnt want to watch transformers and wanted to watch Ice Age 3 3-D instead,(which im so gonna catch it sometime soon!),but im so GLAD dat i didnt miss this awesome movie, it was REALLY WORTH the 6 dollars!haha.

This was the first time im watching Transformers, i didnt watch transformers 1, so i was very lost at first...but later on, i finally understood and i feel that the effects are really cool and i was really sad when Optimus Prime was killed by the EVIL Megatron while he was trying to protect Sam from EVIL Megatro, but in the end, Optimus Prime was revived by the pixie dust dat Sam had gone to long lengths to gather and Jetfire volunteers his parts and spark to give Optimus the strength he needs to defeat.Then Optimus Prime finally killed EVIL Megatron.YAY!

After watching the movie, all of us went to Ying Chyi's house...it was very big and beautiful and it was 3 storeys tall!!!at Sunrise Avenue haha....makes me so envious hahas...nvm nxt time, i will find a rich husband LOLZ...ok la, nvm abt dat,we,women, must depend on ourselves!!haha...Ying Chyi's hse every storey got Plasma TV, duno hw many inch la, but sure alot inch de haha...

And i had a really great time there gossiping with maureen and Anna.hahas lols, we just love gossiping abt celebrities and others..HAHAS!:)

And oh ya, Megan Fox isn't a transvestitie!!It's just a rumor.Yay!! LOL, cos i heard from Anna dat she's a transvestite and i was like so SHOCKED!!HOW can a man be so beaufiful?? thank goodness lol, cos otherwise the image of her is so totally tarnished!!hahas

Megan fox

But then, i also heard from Maureen dat the host for the Zhuan Shi(diamond) Ye Zhong Hui is a transvestite..REALLY!lol...im disappointed hahas...at first i tot she had hoarse and "sha ya" voice becos her voice is always like dat, kinda like a guy's voice, but actually, she's a transvestite!!SIGH!LOLS...i've been encountering pictures of transvestities on facebook, from all those quizzes lor...and im like so SHOCKED!!HOW can they be even more beautiful than a gir1!!!

lols, why are there transvestites in this world???it makes it SO WRONG...but i guess i shouldnt blame them la...im sure they had their own reasons...i shouldnt think so negatively of them...

i wanted to post pics, but it just doesnt work.Too Bad!!hahas!

2009-06-27T22:19:00.005+08:00

Hahas...and if u havent watch Yu Le Bai Fen Bai: Lee Min Ho & goo hye sun appearance,u can watch it here in my blog:D It is hilarious=D Hope dat these videos wont be taken away=DDD

Omg,Lee Min Ho so shuai!!!<333 =DDD Hahas..im so totally mesmerised by him!=DD

2009-06-26T23:28:00.003+08:00

Oh Man, i have nightmares ytd night till morning despite having slept so early at 9.30pm ytd!!!zzz....must be me watching too many horror movies alr hahaha...
lols!!really bad nightmare..dreamt of somebody chopping somebody's flesh off the face!!LOL

Ok lah....im going to sleep soon...SO PLEASEEEEE LET ME HAVE SWEET DREAMS....THANK YOU..LOLS..(listening to sweet songs right now...to have sweet dreams hahaha:D)

Been feeling tired lately and having headaches often, and i've been sleeping like a pig...

Going to study econs tmr...tmr morning ask kor maths qns and study Gravitation for Physics!!!:DDD JIAYOUS!

2009-06-25T15:10:00.005+08:00

I must NOT GIVE UP!! i MUST JIAYOUS!!!
I MUST PERSERVERE ON!!Im seriously feeling this helplessness feeling..

Everytime before exams, i will have before-exam blues....thinking dat i dun wan to study anymore(maybe i'll just drop out of sch, lol) because it is JUST SO DIFFICULT!!I hate studying for the sake of studying!!But i guess i must stop thinking this way and get myself to love studying...SOMEHOW....SOMEWHAT!I have to carry on with my life and Im not the only one taking exams!!

Yeah la, im feeling the huge gap b/w O LVLS and A Lvls qns alr...and feeling the tension...

When there's a will, there's a Way??
I know i'll continue to face more obstacles in this phrase(jc) of life, esp. in studies!!!Maybe im nt suited for jc afterall?? cos i will panic and worry about every single minor thing....

ZZZ, i MUST STOP THINKING THIS WAY LAHHS!!I WILL GET THROUGH IT!! I must think POSITIVELY!

2009-06-24T00:00:00.004+08:00

Look....What's the Time Now??12.05am!!

Oh Man...Im so hopelessx_x
Actually i wanted to continue mugging after i came back from sch(discussion with queenie), hais...but i ended up watching dramas and movies!
Prince of Tennis Live Action Movie, And i click on some other drama shows called Ghost Friends...aww i really wanted to continue watching(i watched until ep 2 le)
But i guess, i shall continue mugging tmr!!!

Ghost Friends seems to be quite a nice and heart-warming show....awww...T_T...
The temptation's too hard for me to withstand alr!Hais....

Not to forget that i've not completed all those stuff that im supposed to complete today!!!!

BUT I WILL TRY MY BEST TMR!!JIAYOUS! XIULING!

Going to sleep straight after writing this post to prepare for the BATTLE TMR!!!!!!

2009-06-22T14:58:00.003+08:00

I shall officially mug for this whole week!!!XiuLing, JiaYOUS!JIAYOUS!
Aja Aja Fighting!!!=DDD

There's SERIOUSLY NO TIME TO WASTE.A WHOLE CHUNK OF REVISION AND HW got to finish!!!

2009-06-21T22:37:00.008+08:00

Today, I and Kor went to Sembawang Shopping Centre nearby(just a 15mins walk from my hse!) to study at the food court there so as to ENJOY THE AIR-CON!Hahas......(we have air-con at home..but we can save money in this way hahas cos mum will nag nag nag...lols(becos kor said dat there r many empty tables at the food court there...so we kinda of camped and discussed at the food court...lol...we were there for about 3hrs plus...but we got order some light desserts de hor...hahas...

kor taught me several maths qns dat i duno how to do...i really appreciate it hahas..:) thks kor:)

Dat's all...this whole day was spent on discussing maths qns and to clarify my doubts with kor!!

And i had some "talk-cock-sing-song-play-mahjong" session with kor!hahas...reminiscing about our childhood days and i realised we really did alot of stupid things back then when we were really young...hahas.. for eg. we did things like climbing out of the window with a very small hole....and we climbed into our neighbours' hse becos it was just next to our backyard when we were living in a terrace house back then...we were really naughty lols...no lah...it's becos my 2 elder bros taught me to do such things..hahas....but nonetheless, i had a really great childhood!!!:DDDDDDD

Now Very sian...so decided to share with u all pics of the BOF actor dat i like and idolised...Lee Min Ho!

Lee Min Ho Very cute right??Hahas...me and my fantasies!!LOL

2009-06-20T14:14:00.004+08:00

Found this pic somewhere, i find it interesting so i decided to postxD

Very COOL!

Cute Drawings of BOF Cast(of cos not drawn by me lols)

So cute right???hahahas:DD

2009-06-19T21:03:00.009+08:00

This morning supposedly is class outing to East Coast Park...but i didnt go...hais....u know lah...my mum doesnt allow me to go cos im still sick x_x

But i can go watch the movie:DDD

Then i was supposed to meet my classmates at Pasir Ris but i dun think i can make it for the 3.05 movie slot...so in the end..we go cathay cineleisure Orchard to watch movie=D

Actually hor, u know y im late mahs?Actually i wont be late de..but then i blur...so stupid..while recalling back>.< ...You know wad?? I took Mrt until bishan, then decided to take Circle Line...i tot can "jump" to payar lebar to change to green line to Pasir Ris....becos i nvr take Circle Line b4..then later on, i realised oh shit, aiya, i rmb reading one article from the newspapers dat Circle Line only has 4 stations!!!Lol, i dunno whether my blurness is due to the medicine i took b4 going out(dat made me drowsy) or is it becos im always so blurr???>_> Hahas im so embarrassed of myself, so i didnt tell my classmates abt this...I bet they will make a joke out of this and laugh like hell la!!hahaha!LOL, even im amazed at my stupidity...

I Rmb the 2nd day(at 5.30am in the morning) when jc sch reopens, i took bus 969 all the way to CHANGI AIRPORT(becos i duno where to go off the bus and i tot.....)!!LOLS...After i tell my kor abt it, he laugh like hell...hahas...it is becos i do not go out often...i guess i shld try going out more often now...becos i definitely dun wan history to repeat itself!!So Paisehs Lorhs..Hahahas...But then now i realised i loved going out..so i definitely will go out more often now...so if u ask me out, i definitely will agree..hahas..SO Go Ahead and ask me out...hahas..i love outings=D

So today finally watched Drag Me To Hell....Really dam scary at the middle part..
I really had a good SCREAM hahas...*thumbs up* for this movie for the scariness part....Really worth the $6 hahas...Really enjoyed myself today...the movie really very exciting hahas:DDDD

HAHA,actually i wanted to post scary and GROSS(Really GROSS,flies coming out of the mouth and all the puking!!EEewww..haha dun wanna spoil ur appetite after reading my post) pictures of Drag Me To Hell...and i dun wanna spoil my blog image..hahahas..so i decided not to postxD..

I encourage u to go and watch this movie if u love the excitement of watching horror movies..hahahas..

2009-06-18T15:15:00.007+08:00

Love this song<333 "Again" bu Yui.

It's fullmetal alchemist:brotherhood OP Song.

2009-06-18T13:26:00.004+08:00

Sigh....im still sick x_x with cough! I went to see the doctor AGAIN today and i was finally prescribed with antibiotics.zzz...the last doctor i went to didnt prescribe me with antibiotics and the medicine really like no use...im still coughing...it has been 1 week alr!!I have not been sleeping well these few days due to me waking up in the middle of the night coughing and also due to on-going insomnia(i think too much at night~lol)

Looks like i cannt go to east coast park to cycle tmr...i have been looking forward to dat!!!but im still going for the movie lah...but then...sigh...im really disappointed!!!

The doctor said dat it's best not to exert myself and with such a hot weather nowadays, it's hard not to sweat!!!I wonder if i can still go for the sentosa outing with 602 classmates??

2009-06-15T19:30:00.005+08:00

This June holiday's gonna be over soon.This is the 3rd week liao.And i havent been doing anything fruitful.Slack, slack and slack is all i've done!Sigh!There's still so many things and homework left undone.

I seriously must change this attitude of mine or i shall face dire consequences.I want to pass my MYCT and get good results and finally, my promos!I definitely dont want to retain! I jolly well buck up!!!Hais...but i duno hw to do the homework...gonna seek help!

I must be disciplined enough to complete all those i've set for myself to do!
I must find my resolve...i need motivation!!!

Xiuling, don't keep saying i will do it tmr, it's just an excuse!!Do and finish it RIGHT NOW!

2009-06-13T12:29:00.006+08:00

Went out with Lianne ytd.We watched Night At the Museum 2 at amk hub then took Mrt Train to Far East Plaza to shop.Yay, SHOPPING:)

Night At the Museum 2 was Yeah well hilarious and some of it were pretty lame...hahaha...nonetheless, i enjoyed it and i had a good laugh:)

Bought one high heeled shoes that is kinda special:looks like sneakers in front but there are high heels behind!Kinda special, isnt' it?And i bought some clothes as well:)

Im Sooo looking forward to next week going to Bugis new shopping Centre called Illuma.Heard of its fancy decor and i bet i will find it cool there.haha!

Here's some pictures of 'Illuma'i've found online :

Looked SOOO FANCY and the lightings are SOO PRETTY and appealing!!!
Im so excited to see this building!:)