Hanasakeru seishounen ep 34 is really good! The story is getting so intense.Li-ren got in the nick of time to save kajika, phew~~~and the kiss at the end of the ep was so good too!Kajika was almost dead!The bonds b/w Li-ren and Kajika is inexplicable.

jiayous 9:33 PM

Yo ppl!:) The torture of countless sleepless nights and anxiety is finally over!Cos I've not been sleeping well for the past few days since my retest.I felt liberated once again!

Let's hope for the best:)

P.S.*Shrugs* at the sight of the pile of unattempted holiday hw





He's Hella cute!=)


jiayous 7:37 PM

I cannt understand how a mother doesnt believe her own daughter and always likes to pour cold water onto me.

Instead of encouraging me to do well in the forthcoming retest, she says that "It's not that i look down on u, but i think dat u cmi de la, i want u to go out and work." in chinese.It's just so preposterous!

Im so furious!

And when i tried to call my friends to ask them for help regarding my studies, she says dat im wasting my time toking to friends, when i shld be studying....=.='"
She JUST doesnt understand dat im NOT JUST chit-chatting away, im REALLY trying to learn....

When i tried many times to point out these facts to her, she just claims that im MEI DA MEI XIAO.

u tell me wad to do??!!When she cannot win me through talk, she will just chg topic and says abt my weakness, like my current pimple breakout.(LI HAI LA!-.-)
Im SO HURT X_X Even the straight-forward me, sometimes i will think of others'feelings and i always just STOPPED myself in time from saying the wrong things at the wrong time.

She dont know hw to be understanding to ppl and is NOT sensitive at all and doesnt think through her brain whenever she talks!

On the other hand, i can barely ask my kor few qns, i ask one physics qn, he zao alr!T_T And my mum was still wondering whether i can uds wad my kor teach me or nt.

OBVIOUSLY,it's so irritating dat she doubted me for my intelligence, it's SO INSULTING!

My kor often teach uni physics stuff to me(he says dat it's gd if im exposed to uni stuff abit FIRST, i agree with him), and the mtds he taught me sometimes is different from the tys and the physics study guide),JUST WHAT DO U WANT ME TO DO LA?

i feel very indignant and guailan alr, gg to flare up any moment.I NEARLY flared up at maureen thru sms,when i suddenly realised dat OMG, IM BECOMING SO ANGRY,fortunately, i deleted the sms away and didnt send to maureen.She's kind enough to teach me physics stuff,i shouldnt even have thought of flaring up at her.

So, what i shld do NOW,IS TO PROVE MY MOTHER WRONG!AND I MUST PASS MY RETESTS!I MUST BE STRONG AND RESIST ALL THE NEGATIVE STUFF!

P.S.Sry if u guys r reading my current post full of rants abt my mother, cos i cannt have my feelings cooped up inside of me, otherwise i will surely go crazy!

jiayous 3:20 PM

Oh My God, i've slacked yet another day away...i just did SOME physics qns in the morning then slacked this whole day away...hais...

OK, I promise u all dat i will work doubly hard from now, no outings for me le la, studies more impt.Hais...but then, hais.....who can i ask for help??!!

My bro is so into his gf now la.....almost everyday with his gf, he didnt have the time to teach me....then hor...aiya...nvm lorh...sighz

I nid inspiration, MOTIVATION!!!

Some stuff to motivate MYSELF!:

Remorse, Regret, Guilt will haunt me if i didnt give it my best shot this time.
If i just give up now, i aint gonna get anywhere.

What is it dat i want in life? Seriously,i just wanted to be a pri sch teacher. So, the least i could do is to get into university and i have to get a scholarship, otherwise i will have to worry abt my university fees.

I have to know what i want and what i need to do.
I have to Set my priorities right and GAIN power to FIGHT against desperation and distractions.

This is my LAST chance to make this phase of mine right.Am I just gonna waste this 2nd chance to retest?? when some ppl in other jcs dun even get a chance to retest?The answer is NOOOO!

Study is a Challenge to me, cos im becoming so lazy, but i have to learn to love it, STARTING FROM NOW!

BE INTERESTED NOW!!!!(if only i can transfer my passion and patience for watching bittersweet korean dramas to studying...T_T)

Somehow, i have to find the inner strength in me to overcome this challenge.

There's a reason why im here on Earth,living,breathing and staying alive.Im given a chance to study in S'pore whereas there are children in other countries who WANT to study but are not given the opportunities...and yet im NOT making full use of it.

I guess i just took this for granted..in fact, i actually took MANY things for granted...like how my father should pay for my education etc...it just seemed to be so rightfully dat this is the least dat parents SHOULD do for their children.

I guess the whatever analysis is RIGHT,being the third and youngest child of my family and all,IM A SELF INDULGENT CHILD,I find myself CONSTANTLY FINDING THINGS TO DO OTHER THAN THE ONE I SHOULD BE DOING...i like to pamper myself with cutisie stuff and yummy treats.

It's just dat SOMETIMES,i'll just stop in my tracks and reflect once in a while.I always tok BIG BUT nvr really do it.ACTIONS REALLY SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS.

Im prideful, likes to think dat im intelligent when in fact, im not.Likes to criticise ppl.

I HAVE TO MAKE myself USEFUL and not just be an aimless person, otherwise i can just go to hell.Lolx.

I JOLLY WELL FINISH THE TYS MCQ QNS BK AND the assessment bk dat i've borrowed, otherwise, i am NOT doing myself JUSTICE.

jiayous 11:35 PM

Ytd i bought new sports shoes from New Balance, using the discount voucher dat were given to us,Ajcians. But using my own precious money of cos,$94.50 after the 30% discount!

Bought new specs as well:)Cos the old one is so ugly and old-fashioned and all.haha, finally persuade my mum to pay for it after i've bought it.I have my own ways...hehe:)

Alrights, i gotta go back studying le.CYA!:DD

jiayous 12:40 PM