Arghhh....my mum keeps feeding me food, LOL!Gonna get fat!lol

hmm... today got principal's talk....quite motivating and i got to reflect on myself for a couple of minutes...totally in a serious mood and i feel like im gonna perservere and not give up.

What separates high-achievers from average people is their response to failure.

We just have to pick ourselves up after faltering along the way.

Lesson learnt #1: Learn from your mistakes
Lesson learnt #2: Humility, be open to new ideas and knowledge.
Lesson learnt #3: Be POSITIVE!Learn to see things in a positive light and move
forward from there.

Lesson learnt #4: Do your best, such that i will NOT have any regrets!(dignity gained)

Most importantly,If Other people can do it, so can I!

jiayous 9:48 PM

i cried ytd until my eyes were swollen this morning when i woke up, after being reprimanded by my elder bro over some window live messenger error...kinda depressing...i did search of how to solve the error, but he said dat i didnt put in any effort at all to find, saying dat im always finding the easy way out. I feel so maligned...i did put in effort, i spent hours!!!But it may be dat i couldnt really judge properly, cos the internet is very dangerous nowadays and im so gullible and all!Hais! His words can be so hurting and cruel sometimes...just cut through my heart...and also just thinking of how my promo results couldnt meet the promotion criteria just makes me feel so depressed...the stress dat has been building up in me cause me to just break down and cry......

Therefore, this morning when i woke up, my eyelids were swollen...and luckily i woke up and spent half an hr trying to use ice cubes with handkerchief to lessen and soothe my swollen eyelids, thankfully, the swollenness of my eyelids has gone down quite a bit, and it is not dat obvious dat my eyelids are swollen.

Im happy to know dat ppl r concerned for me and tried to console me.....those who r not my classmates and just acquaintances of mine, whom i have not known for a long time, as well as my classmates.....Yeap, im happy to know dat i've made great friends, at least at this phase of my life.

You know, sometimes, i feel im so insignificant and so insecure at times.i tend to put on a false front in front of my friends, becos of my pride,acting to be strong when in fact, im not.All i've ever wanted in my life is to have ONE true best friend to confide to, but at this stage of my life, i've not found one yet, i feel so ashamed...while looking at others, who seemed to be so close to one another and are best friends, im feeling so envious of them.

Im one who believes in treating others the way they treat me and i will definitely give my 100% to ppl who r good to me, but sometimes, ppl just take u for granted and dun appreciate u.

Not to mention the fact that i haven told my elder bros and parents about my results, about the predicament i am in, the fact that i MAY retain this yr.....see whether or not, i am given a chance to retest...i wonder how their reaction might be when i've told them...

I feel so apologetic to my elder bros, really, i couldnt match up to ur expectations of getting "As", really, i couldnt even manage a pass at this stage...im terrified......im not like my elder bros, sometimes, i feel so envious of them for being so intelligent....i did put in the effort, but u know wad, during the exam, my mind got stucked again, i panic and my blurrness got the better of me.Becos of a little minor blurrness on my part, i got the rest of dat qn wrong.....i feel unjustified, it's not dat i cannot do, HAIS!Some other qns too.......

I am not able to take stress very well(stress from my family, my elder siblings and peer pressure), and i always cried over my results,im such a crybaby, but i cant help it, i cannot control my EMOTIONS!Last time i used to cry very often, so often that my eyelid has grown a small bump and my parents took me to the eye specialist to get my bump removed! It was a minor surgery to extract that small bump, i was really scared dat time...that was when i finally got to persuade my parents after nagging so many times, that they finally agreed to bring me to the eye specialist. You know how my parents are like, so superstitious and believing in chinese physicians and all, before going to the eye specialist, they just said dat my small bump at my eyelid was due to heatinness and it will soon go away naturally,just drink more liang teh,but it never did!

Later, my eye specialist gone on to explain dat the small bump in my eyelid was developed as a result of me crying too often, dat explains it ALL!

jiayous 6:37 PM

Watch Super Junior cross-dressing as girls, dancing to the song "Gee" from Girls' Generation


jiayous 5:26 PM

My com is ok alr since i've reformatted my com and deleted everything! LOL.
Now can use alr and i dun have to use my bro's com anymore! CHEERS!:)

Oh ya, today is supposedly class outing(to watch the movie 500 days of summer), but i forgone the outing today to reformat my com, it really takes ages to install everything back! Patience is a virtue! I just have to wait patiently lor....
Even though i really wanted to go and watch with my classmates....no choice,bo bian
>_< Some of my classmates r not gg too, since they have to do pw......

Nonetheless, im really really happy to have my com back, even though im still not sure whether all of my com's problems have been resolved yet.

jiayous 4:23 PM

It has been quite some time since i've blogged.My com is down, so im using my bro's com temporarily.Bored, bored, feeling so bored without my com, hahas.i can only use my bro's com for awhile.im so looking forward to watching the movie with my classmates this Monday, which is a sch-holiday in lieu of Deepavali.We'll probably be watching the movie 500 days of summer.Oh wells, since it's a class outing, we'll have to accomodate the others.Even though i wanted to watch horror movies,some of my classmates r too scared to watch, haha.So, i guess, it's ok, since i love watching movies of the romance and comedy genres as well.:)

jiayous 10:02 PM

Oh My, today, i flared up at my mum again...i really shouldnt have done that. It so happens that i slept alot today, and due to pure boredom, since my com was temporarily down(pc power supply problems again!, i slept and slept.My mum was trying to wake me up to eat lunch and i flared up at her.Maybe the hot weather in the afternoon has caused me to lose my temper and whenever, i suffer from lack of sleep or have headaches, i will just flare up all of a sudden, not to mention my bad temper.Lol, my mum is like dat too! So we will just start bickering all over again.The vicious cycle!

haha, everytime i did that, i will start to feel guilty of my own actions, like now, and sometimes i will just start to shed tears in the middle of the night while thinking abt such stuff.haha>_< i really ought to reflect on my own actions and get rid of my bad temper.

There's like 2 sides of me and they overlap each other.They r like such opposites characters.One is the shy and quiet self.(That's when sometimes, i feel really patient)The other is the fun-loving,impulsive and bad-tempered side of me.Sometimes, i let the other side of me show. It really depends on my mood that day.

In fact, im just trying to be Me right now.i really like to have fun and i ABSOLUTELY hate the feeling of getting ignored by others.

jiayous 8:50 PM

i've come to realise what's impt, and what's not. I've come to appreciate my mum more instead of bickering with her all day in the past.It's getting on my nerves.Something just had to be done on my part. I shouldnt rebuke her and now, i seem to appreciate all the little things she have done for our family, such as cooking a simple meal, etc.Really, she took the effort and i should acknowledge the effort.

I have to be more filial!My parents r getting old, *sudden realisation* and i feel guilty.
I shall do more research so as to convince my stubborn and overbearing father to drop his superstitious acts, acts that will be detrimental to his health and my health(ext.costs to third parties,learnt from econs haha)
I promised myself to do that.

It's gonna get busier from now on, with the pw stuff and OP, and since i've joined the YEC, i have to set aside some time for dat, and oso other mediocre stuff.And i have to work on my GP Reading file, seriously, highlight all those articles and do some real mindmaps.Otherise, i will really be disappointing myself.I've not been performing to my own expectations.

I really wish that i will not retain this yr, cause i knew i could do so much better.

i still rmb what Ms Aishah, my pri 4 teacher wrote in my diary:" Do your best and perservere when things don't go your way. Don't disappoint ur parents and most importantly, dont disappoint yourself!" .I will always rmb this.Cos im one who will give up easily when i face obstacles and i will use this to spur myself on.I will PERSERVERE ON!

jiayous 12:50 PM

Ate subway for Dinner and Watched the Movie: Fame at Amk Cathay ytd, after the last physics paper with my clique gals and a few other girls in my class The movie was great!!! i give thumbs up for it!=P

jiayous 12:43 PM

Time really flies man, gotta buck up and fasten my reins!

jiayous 11:18 PM



This video is really funny man, watch it! hahas, i bet u will LOL:)



Love this song<3333=DDDD Taeyang sing so nice~~~~~~:DD

jiayous 6:54 PM

2NE1 Fever~~~~~~~~~~~

jiayous 5:43 PM

Im wondering why i still cannt let go....感情的执著...hais, i hate tis side of me.

Going to mug maths tmr.Tmr morning study chem again.Oh wells, let nature take its course xD

jiayous 10:22 PM