Seriously...someday..i really will blow up and become bonkers in this CRAZY FAMILY....Tolerating all these nonsense....

My eldest brother keep spouting nonsense...everytime telling me not to surf "porn"
ZZZ...SERIOUSLY!!! when did i ever do that??? And he just said it so easily...IM SO PISSED OFF! ARGH...He shld use the word"porn" MORE discreetly...

As for my mum,......idk whether is it she has a problem with me or wad...okay...so she was telling me to wash my own clothes...i agreed...but then, she just threw my clothes onto the dirty rug...in the toilet...SERIOUSLY! THAT'S SO GROSS AND DIRTY OVER THERE! How can she expect me to take the clothes and wash from the dirty rug????(P.S.The dirty rug seem to have fungi growing on them...greenish all those...that's so gross okay?) AND SOMEMORE, she did it several times...i told her SEVERAL TIMES to never to do that again, but she just did it! WITHOUT CONSIDERING MY FEELINGS!that was so "considerate" of her! HAHA!LOLS=(

I hate to quarrel with my mum cos i knew that it will undermine our mother-daughter relationship(i will always cry silently in my sleep after i quarrel with her)
and i really LOVE my mother alot! Even though sometimes, i will just say things without thinking thru my head...and also partly due to my straightforward personality as well...i admit that im also wilful too..and VERY stubborn, refusing to give in when im in the wrong...WELL, nobody is perfect...but this time, SHE's in the wrong and she ought to acknowledge it!

P.S. I hate others to see me crying...i feel that im such a weakling...and i want to be a stronger person!

Sorry for u guys out there reading my blog to read ALL my frustrations....SORRY, BUT I REALLY REALLY NEED TO VENT IT OUT, OTHERWISE I WILL really go bonkers!!!

Hais...............i really had mixed-feelings for my family...sometimes, i really hate them but i treasure the fact that i stil had a family and am considered fortunate already as compared to those orphans out there......

What shld i do???i have already tried to accomodate my parents already and i REALLY REALLY HATE the fact that i have to remind my parents to do things....i mean they are older than me and i expect them to be mature!! BUT THAT'S REALLY NOT THE CASE!This has also FORCED me to grow up and be more mature!!!I need to give in to them!...

ZZZ...My father is another case....Everytime he see me, he will just do some silly actions...PERHAPS, that's his way of communicating with me, BUT I REALLY DO NOT LIKE IT!...I HOPE THAT HE WILL BE MORE CONSIDERATE AND NOT BE SO OVERBEARING and overly SUPERSTITOUS!! ALWAYS! HE HAD TO VIE WITH ME FOR THE TELEVISION! HAIS....=( Im ALWAYS the one losing out in the end...even though i may be VERY STUBBORN AT TIMES!
My father always wants his way...and if i do not give in to him...he will use his fists on me!! I still have to bear in mind that i cannot anger him! COS he got high blood pressure!But my temper is not good too!Im also a temperamental person...but still...i MUST TOLERATE!

WHAT's the problem with my father??He always have to give negative comments about the things i do, for eg. in my studies, he will always say that i will get last in class=.="' and pour cold water down on me!! SERIOUSLY, WAD'S HIS PROBLEM?? When im down, he doesnt console me and instead made it much worse! This has caused me to break down several times...but hopefully, i didnt get depression until now...and it won't be the case in the future!I won't let this get to me....

Why?? Why is it dat the other families i've seen are much more cohesive and they give in to each other?? and mine??

IT'S ALRIGHT! I WILL STAY STRONG!

jiayous 9:57 PM