Just finished watching Nodame Cantabile: Paris-Hen.I must say that this season ends quite boringly.But im definitely looking forward to season 3!

jiayous 1:25 PM

i guess everything's fine now...after my mum blends a cup of juice for me and after a good night's sleep!!...lol...All my grievances were all gone~ lol!

Anyway, i felt quite relieved that i didnt get the exco-position...lol...duno why...by right, i shouldnt feel like that hahas...Frankly speaking, i really felt stressed thinking upon the cip events i had to organise if i was the cip officer...really problematic sia...then i have to constantly worry about the awwa sch and all..Now, it's really a load off my mind! Nonetheless, i still have to help samantha since im in the cip committee but that's really fine! Since i enjoy helping people!:)

Yes, Now im back to being a Nobody again...hahas...lolx...
Yes, if u r wondering...i DO HAVE mood swings every now and then...Considering ytd's post being a venting of frustrations post and all, and today, im like feeling so peaceful and relieved!Now, i can really concentrate on my studies since i fared really badly in my tests!REALLY GOT TO WORK HARDER!Lol!

But still got the Youth group thingy, but that's like quite fun la!Hope that i can get in worhs and help people! Perhaps next time, im considering of becoming a social worker:P

Here's a lovely picture to end today's post!

So Sweet!

jiayous 6:15 PM

How stingy parents i have!!-.-

I merely wanted my mum to buy the oxy 5 for applying on pimples for me and she just refused...she says i have to use MY OWN money to buy myself!How Great!!ZZZ( It is so obvious that she knows i have no money since i do not work!)She says im not a princess and i do not need all these items...but really, there is no link..ok? I know im not a princess, neither am i beautiful.. but this is such a lousy excuse!

I really felt so unfortunate to be in this family!My parents everytime refuse to buy things for us, and they EXPECT us to be independent....Since young, whenever i want to buy toys, clothes or even ice-creams, they will just refuse to buy...and i was told to save up my money if i wanna buy...I did so...IT WAS JUST SO PATHETIC LAH!

I remembered resorting to stealing once in my old hse when i was very young, becos i really wanted to buy toys......ZZZ.....

My life is just SO PATHETIC!i even had to fork out my own money that i had saved up from my $500 scholarship every year to buy the clothes i want...My mum keep saying that i nid to study now and there's no use to dress nicely..EVERYTIME! she will give excuses for example, last time she buy clothes for me, i dun fancy it, then this time, she dun wanna buy for me le...REALLY! FULL OF EXCUSES!
My needs:stationary, clothes, bags, shoes etc...All i use my own money earned from scholarhsip to buy de...They are such LOUSY PARENTS!

Even the internet i used at home, they refused to let us subscribe to the internet plan, even though i really need to use the internet for my project work and all those e-learning work, but my father told me to JUST GO NATIONAL LIBRARY AND DO!HE ALWAYS COMPARE US TO THOSE VERY POOR FAMILIES, always comparing me to his friend's daughter, saying that she half work and half study at the same time and he expect me to do the same!....the only reason we(me and my 2 older brothers) get to use now is due to the fact that my oldest brother used his own name to subscribe to the plan and he paid the internet bill every month with his own money!

But Hey!i know that my family can afford all these(internet connection and all those) because my father has money to buy those USELESS STUFF LIKE DEITIES STATUES! AND THOSE FA CAI shiny banners(SUPERSTITIOUS STUFF) THAT COSTS $8,888.HE EVEN HAD MOENY TO BUY 4-D AND HAD SPENT ABOUT $1000+ PLUS AT A GO FOR EACH BET!REALLY, i wanted to reprimand my father so MUCH that he really didnt spend the money wisely! Moreever, this kind of thing has repeated many times already!i've tried many times but it's to no avail.NOW, IM TIRED OF NAGGING HIM ALREADY!Whenever i tried to point out these facts to him,he will say me MEI DA MEI XIAO, but really!I WANTED TO TELL HIM TO STOP BEING GREEDY AND THAT MONEY DO NOT DROP FORM THE SKY! !My father however, had good points too, i can really see that he really work very hard to earn money(That's why i and my siblings are able to study) bUT HIS MONEY ALWAYS GOES TO THE WRONG PLACE!He's either being cheated by his friends by lending his money to them or becoming some gurrantor for loan sharks for his friends (becos he's so gullible),or he is spending his hard-earned money on ALL THE WRONG PLACE!That explains why i keep moving house when i was young, i moved hse every half a year until about primary 5 and 6, it finally stabilised and i didnt move hse..What shld i do??He JUST WILL NOT LEARN! HOW SILLY.His stupid actions had caused the whole family to suffer with him! HOW DREADFUL!

FINE! I WAS DAMN PISSED OFF WITH MY PARENTS LE!

Everytime i go to my friends' hse, i will realise that their parents are really much better than mine...i really feel very sad.............T_T How i envy them........T_T

jiayous 8:24 PM

Seriously...someday..i really will blow up and become bonkers in this CRAZY FAMILY....Tolerating all these nonsense....

My eldest brother keep spouting nonsense...everytime telling me not to surf "porn"
ZZZ...SERIOUSLY!!! when did i ever do that??? And he just said it so easily...IM SO PISSED OFF! ARGH...He shld use the word"porn" MORE discreetly...

As for my mum,......idk whether is it she has a problem with me or wad...okay...so she was telling me to wash my own clothes...i agreed...but then, she just threw my clothes onto the dirty rug...in the toilet...SERIOUSLY! THAT'S SO GROSS AND DIRTY OVER THERE! How can she expect me to take the clothes and wash from the dirty rug????(P.S.The dirty rug seem to have fungi growing on them...greenish all those...that's so gross okay?) AND SOMEMORE, she did it several times...i told her SEVERAL TIMES to never to do that again, but she just did it! WITHOUT CONSIDERING MY FEELINGS!that was so "considerate" of her! HAHA!LOLS=(

I hate to quarrel with my mum cos i knew that it will undermine our mother-daughter relationship(i will always cry silently in my sleep after i quarrel with her)
and i really LOVE my mother alot! Even though sometimes, i will just say things without thinking thru my head...and also partly due to my straightforward personality as well...i admit that im also wilful too..and VERY stubborn, refusing to give in when im in the wrong...WELL, nobody is perfect...but this time, SHE's in the wrong and she ought to acknowledge it!

P.S. I hate others to see me crying...i feel that im such a weakling...and i want to be a stronger person!

Sorry for u guys out there reading my blog to read ALL my frustrations....SORRY, BUT I REALLY REALLY NEED TO VENT IT OUT, OTHERWISE I WILL really go bonkers!!!

Hais...............i really had mixed-feelings for my family...sometimes, i really hate them but i treasure the fact that i stil had a family and am considered fortunate already as compared to those orphans out there......

What shld i do???i have already tried to accomodate my parents already and i REALLY REALLY HATE the fact that i have to remind my parents to do things....i mean they are older than me and i expect them to be mature!! BUT THAT'S REALLY NOT THE CASE!This has also FORCED me to grow up and be more mature!!!I need to give in to them!...

ZZZ...My father is another case....Everytime he see me, he will just do some silly actions...PERHAPS, that's his way of communicating with me, BUT I REALLY DO NOT LIKE IT!...I HOPE THAT HE WILL BE MORE CONSIDERATE AND NOT BE SO OVERBEARING and overly SUPERSTITOUS!! ALWAYS! HE HAD TO VIE WITH ME FOR THE TELEVISION! HAIS....=( Im ALWAYS the one losing out in the end...even though i may be VERY STUBBORN AT TIMES!
My father always wants his way...and if i do not give in to him...he will use his fists on me!! I still have to bear in mind that i cannot anger him! COS he got high blood pressure!But my temper is not good too!Im also a temperamental person...but still...i MUST TOLERATE!

WHAT's the problem with my father??He always have to give negative comments about the things i do, for eg. in my studies, he will always say that i will get last in class=.="' and pour cold water down on me!! SERIOUSLY, WAD'S HIS PROBLEM?? When im down, he doesnt console me and instead made it much worse! This has caused me to break down several times...but hopefully, i didnt get depression until now...and it won't be the case in the future!I won't let this get to me....

Why?? Why is it dat the other families i've seen are much more cohesive and they give in to each other?? and mine??

IT'S ALRIGHT! I WILL STAY STRONG!

jiayous 9:57 PM

This is a late post for 12nd May, which is my birthday.....:)
I didnt have a habit of celebrating my birthday all these years....due to my parents SUPERSTITIONS!(it was smthing like if u celebrate with candles, the hades will know that you are one year older and u will die sooner...smthing like dat lol...i dun really believe in all these stuff...and personally i think that it was really ridiculous and nonsensical...but what can i do??)...argh...my parents are still as superstitious as EVER NOW!!!(referring to other nonsensical things and myths etc that i shan't mention)...

In fact, my WHOLE family don't really celebrate our own birthdays except when we were really little, like celebrate birthdays until we were 4 years old...then didnt even bother to celebrate...
Nevertheless, i wish to receive presents...hahahas..and perhaps, when i get older, i wish to have birthday parties...


So what did i do on my birthday? My mum didnt bother to cook my favourite dishes...but that's fine with me...she just bought mixed rice with my fav. dishes...hais....that is like so sad...but i dun take it to heart....and i just did my usual things lor...surfing the net and relieve some stress by watching some videos......Yea...that's how my life is...kinda sad right?? But i mustn't be disheartened!!!!!:)

Here are my presents i've received for my birthday:


From my Kor, A family of purple carebears!!!! So cute!!!!:))))

(The middle and "dirty" sharebear is my beloved carebear that has stayed with me over the years...that explains why it's so dirty and the purple colour is like faded...but i really treasure it...becos it had stayed with me during my hard times...and i will just hug her to sleep...)

The other 2 smaller purple carebears are given by my kor for my birthday this year:))





The Nanako PAN (tortoise)family!!! WAHAHA....

Cutie Baby Carebears!!!I really like purple!!! hahas...dat's why my carebears are all purple...

Of cos, i still have other presents lah...but these are just some of the presents...
AND i really want to thank my friends for the presents....I REALLY LOVE THE BAG that you all have bought for me.....:))) Once again, arigatou!!!

AND MY WISHES this year:

1) i hope dat i will get rid of my bad habit of dilly-dallying...and always getting late or almost late for sch!!! zzz...i just cannt seem to get rid of it! but i will try very hard, i promise!!

2)Get good grades for my promos and not failing my tests anymore!! especially for Physics and Chemistry!!! I mustn't disappoint anybody and most importantly, MYSELF!!!

3) i MUST GET RID OF MY BAD HABITS!!

4) Buy New clothes and bags!!

5) Able to cope well with CCA and studies, which apparently, i fail terribly at!!!:((
With all the first aid courses and theory test and EXAMS and organisation of events !!! which have made me all hay-wired and frantic already >.<

It's really a CHALLENGE for ME!!!

6) STay strong and overcome my fears...be it: heights or stage fright or even the fear of presenting in front of people. AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, JUST BE MYSELF!I dun have to pretend or try to be like somebody else....i dun have to make myself uncomfortable, pacify people, always trying to be the nice person(helping people to pick up the loose ends!)and helping people who do not reciprocate and appreciate my efforts,tolerate really ridiculous stuff and make myself miserable.....

REALLY, XiuLing...YOU don't have to do all these...all these shall be in the past...it's time for a CHANGE!I MUST overcome my fears!!!


jiayous 7:41 PM

More pictures of Lee Min Ho....He's so cute and i love his smile!!=)Nowadays i've been like totally obsessed with him...He is so good-looking..hahas...he is my fav. korean actor!



jiayous 7:19 PM

Ok..This serves as a reminder to myself:)

Homework to complete:

1) GP compre and summary(by tues)
2) GP Current affairs quiz(by thurs)
3) Chemical bonding tutorial
4) Dynamics tutorial(the leftover qns)
5) Work,energy power tutorial
6) Mathematics induction tutorial
7) Chem spa wk sht
8) Do Dynamics quiz on ivle!(expires on 11 may)
9)Transformation of curves(must clarify my doubts!!)
10) Prepare physics file for checking(include completed tutorials+ quizzes solutions:due on nxt wed)

Seriously, so much work is piling up and i don't know whether i'll get to finish them or not...
Haizz....XiuLing...Aza Aza FIGHTING!:)

And ZZZ, i hate my brother keep using my computer for mapling...zzz i hate it...it's so irrtating, he's depriving me of my table to do hw...and my computer and my chair!!!! zzz, i cannt even do anything now...hais..He even wanted me to help him in mapling...do wad quests sia..ZZZ..He's SO SELFISH!!!

jiayous 12:31 PM



jiayous 8:06 PM

i've watched A Moment to Remember, a Korean Movie, at crunchyroll.com today=D It was a bittersweet movie and it made me cry.Below are some pictures of the movie. The guy and the girl are so cute together! I'll recommend u guys out there to watch it!


jiayous 9:17 PM

Today napfa is a disappointment....hais..my inclined pull-up cmi...i only did 3!!!hais...dat is like so miserable...but lucky i gt pass napfa...all of my other stations r ok..all get at least 3 pts and abv...except inclined pull-up...zzz...nt enuff strength!!!(i don't want the same thing to happen to me nxt yr when i take my napfa...i better train my inclined pull-up!!)

Today i heard from priya and amirah dat Yu Hui PERHAPS will drop out of ajc!!!Hais....i feel so sad for her...this year..she has been absenting herself from sch due to a headache illness called Migraine...she has been getting weaker ever since last year...and she is now so pale-looking...
I hope dat she will get better soon and hope dat she won't drop out of ajc!!!May God bless her!!!PLEASEEE...

jiayous 4:51 PM

This morning, it started to rain when I was about to reach sch, after I've alighted at Yio Chu Kang Mrt Station and I was drenched when I reached sch!…=( [Blames on my bag hahas..the buttons on my bag very hard to open…lol…this kind of thing ALWAYS only happen to me…haha…dunno why..lols…arghh…I wanna buy new bag soon?! But my bag last yr december then buy de lehhs…hais…=( ]

The Speak Easy finals during our gp lecture was damn funny….some jokers out there..haha one fella left the deepest impression on me…his qn is:Size does matter.Do you agree? That speaker mentioned abt the Newton’s Law…apple falling from the tree..he said that if it was the watermelon tree… ppl wouldn’t rmb..so size does matter…LOLZ…soooo funny…duno whether he is trying to be funny or wad…Priya was pretty impressive and quite convincing with her speech and i was like WOW!!!She spoke really fast sia…haha….she is like practically saying out the whole argumentative essay!!!!…Anyway, it was not the first time i've seen her talking so fast hahas..even though i described it like dat..

Btw, her qn was: Should pop singers earn more than nurses? Do u agree?Normally, if it was me who spoke, I wouldn’t have time to say out the whole essay…So I really really admire her for her ability to speak so fast and articulately as well…. Shubham won the speak easy contest. .He was really good!!(thumbs up*) I shan’t mention the other finalist speakers as im not an acquaintance of them and I don’t really remember…Then is 1 hr break..

After our 1hr break, we had Physics and maths lecture…Physics lecture was quite engaging with the balancing of the coin on the hanger…while maths lecture, as always, was plain boringgg….

Then we have econs and pw after our lunch, then is go home!!Hurray! lols

Tmr is Napfa test 5 items…kinda worried about my inclined pull up..hais….
Hopefully………...............................

Hai!! Upon thinking about the awwa proposal arh, why hasn't the awwa principal or the person-in-charge of the organisation reply us yet!!????Tsk....so long le..they haven reply us...if they didnt reply, we also cannot proceed to carrying out our plans...it's such a bother!!!and it has been weighing down on my mind for like 1 week!!I hope that they will reply us soon!

jiayous 6:08 PM

It is just so mysterious how someone's tastes and preferences can change over the years.I mean for me, last time, i used to hate banana-loaf bread and egg yolk..but now, i've come to love them.

I know that from what i've learnt from econs, tastes and preferences can be affected by: Advertising, Fashion,Observation of other consumers, Health, gender, age considerations as well as past experiences....but that's not the case and it's not the point im trying to say here..hahas

Perhaps, it is due to my greater acceptance of things and my willingness to learn how to love them.

Nobody can hate a person forever and shall ever label someone as "hatred".That person may have angered you or done something really cruel or undesirable to you....

Nobody is perfect.Perhaps, that someone may have been misled to doing something undersirable to you on a moment of folly.

My point is: Learn to forgive and forget...and try to see both a person's positive and negative qualities, instead of just harping on a person's bad qualities.Who knows, u may just learn something from them that u do not have. Everyone's bound to have something that they are good in, be it small or insignificant. Try to overlook and accept their flaws and come to love them.

I know that it takes time and it's not easy. But hatred will only make you miserable and your heart will only be full of sadness. Life has to go on, so why not lead a happy life?

jiayous 11:07 AM