jiayous 8:33 PM

oh man, i raised my voice at my mum AGAIN!-.- I shouldnt have done it...Really...Wad's wrong with me? I bet i have hurt her feelings, the feeling of rejection u know???I guess, it's really hurtful!Oh no!Human's feelings r fragile....lol..i think it's the same for anyone...no matter how someone feigns to be nonchalant abt the matter,deep inside the heart, i believe,there's bound to be some weakness and they will feel some hurt.

Come to think of it,my mum did alot for our family, she cooks, washes clothes etc......BUT SHE COMPLAINS ALOT TOO!LOL and she has been slogging her whole life for our family...hais....and yet, i didnt really do much for her....i even shouted at her!!!Dat is so unfilial of me!

When i wanted to give her birthday presents or Mother's Day presents, she always refuses it....:( So i guess, the least i can do, is to be filial to her!
(BUT SHE ALSO NVR GIVE ME BIRTHDAY PRESENTS or cook any of my fav. dishes on my birthday-.-, yes, im pathetic lol, But...it's not dat our mother-daughter relationship is not on good terms la,it's just dat...........to her, birthdays r just some other day, it's not smth worth celebrating!:( hais...im ok with it, REALLY! )

I will try to be nicer to her......!

jiayous 8:36 PM

Sigh......when r my pimples gg to get better??? Seems to have more and more
:( Hais.......stupid pimple woes...scarrring on my face....oh...damn...hais...

i start to have pimple breakouts(ever since last oct!)while other ppl's pimples have alr subsided......hais...im so envious of ppl whose face are so clear, no pimples, no scars>_< i used to have clear face too>< hais......

nth seems to work...applying oxy5 will leave scars behind, but if i dun apply, pimples keep popping out, the GP medicine and blue cleanser doesnt seem to work too.hais...i think im gg to make another trip to the clinic soon...maybe is becos i didnt eat the pills on time.:o sometimes, i forgot to eat.Hais.

Nvm, i must have faith!It hurts to see my face like dat and my elder bros asking me repeatedly why i have so many pimples!:( You think i wan de meh? Is it becos of hygiene reasons? I dun think so, i think it is due to hormonal change!DAMN!

Now, im really feeling the agony of being a teenager, the frustrations felt during the teenage yrs when pimples start to break out><

jiayous 9:11 PM

Aiya...XiuLing, xiuling arh, STOP PONDERING OVER WORTHLESS STUFF! Just do what u gotta do!

And Im so proud dat I've been arriving early at sch these few days.....haha...i gotta KEEP reminding myself to wake up earlier, to eat faster in the morning and to dress up for sch faster, otherwise i will always dilly dally, it's really a bad habit of mine:(

I GOTTA KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!I WILL DEFINITELY NOT BE LATE!! JUST U WAIT AND SEE,im gonna get rid of my bad habit, hahahas:)

and today...is the track and field meet for relays....and hais....got last for both races i've competed in...Im the last runner for my team...so when i got last...i feel damn malu:(:( hais...maybe i run too slow le bah:( cannt seemt to catch up leh..sian....:( hais...even though i tell others it's ok...in my heart...i still feel a tinge of disappointment..

jiayous 5:39 PM



Enjoy the video!Ppl!

Show luo and Rainie Yang are So cute tgther in this video and they have great chemistry, with their voices synchronised and all~=DD haha lol, Show luo is really cute with his dork "Mo Gu Tou" image.haha, maybe only he can pull off this image yet appear cute ba.LoL

jiayous 9:13 PM

Im gonna be 18th yrs old this yr after my birthday alr.Even though my birthday is still quite some time away, i consider myself at this age to be able to be more disciplined and mature.It's time to make some wise and responsible decisions.Omg, i sound so serious.Lol.

Oh Wells, this shall be the resolution for this new yr.I haven written any resolutions yet.Lol

New Yr Resolutions(I hope it's not too late,lol)

1) Be more responsible for my own actions by Working Hard and NOT slacking.Cos last yr i really slacked alot....Keep using com watch this, watch that.Then ended up in the predicament of having to retest.

2)Be more disciplined.Complete the tasks given for the day instead of keep delaying one day by one day to do hw.

3) Try to be happy and NOT be too stressed.:)

4) Try to be nice to my parents and not pick a fight with them unnecessarily!(It's shortening my lifespan man, cos they can be so unreasonable at times:(
I will try to be less temperamental.Even if they really do wan to pick a fight with me, i shall stay calm and try to laugh to ease the tension.(think smth funny, it works:)It's all abt the mind:)

5) Become a much more STRONGER person!=DD I shant be a crybaby anymore, hopefully:)

I have big hopes and expectations of myself to complete the tasks i've set for myself for the day.

1) Finish up phenols and alcohol leftover qns!
2) Do Chem equilibrium tut.

Come on,Xiuling!!!You can Do it! Feeling lazy is NOT an excuse OK???:DDD

Labels: Jiayous, U CAN DO IT :DD

jiayous 4:49 PM

YaY!!!I've passed the retest!! and got both subjects Bs.This is smth worth rejoicing but at the same time, NOT smth to be complacent abt,since the papers are much easier than promos but still....i find some of the qns difficult.Seriously, i suck at my studies, i everything also 半桶水 one.LoL.So Mada Mada Dane:)

I promised myself dat if i ever got to pass this retest, i will work doubly hard from now on.Perhaps, God and Tong Zi Gong heard my prayers. At least, i know dat hard work pays off.

At first glimpse, everything seems difficult to me, but really,as long as u have the will to learn and try, nth's too difficult.What actually sets one apart from another is one's determination.I rmb last time i quite hardworking one,really very guai kia, but in recent yrs, become more and more lazy...lol...due to computer,idols distractions and stuff.I hope dat im determined and disciplined enough this time......

Oh wells, the mountain pile of hw is waiting for meeee!!!and several tests are coming up!I better try to catch up with the pace!No slacking!

Yea, i hope dat this retest really taught me a valuable lesson, i wont ever want to fail again and go thru this mentally agonizing period again, causing me to have severe insomnia!(My dark rings r getting worse and my stupid pimples T_T)

And of cos, i must change my bad habit of being late!GAHHHH!The principal says dat i must sign a contract to not be late, in order to be provisionally promoted!AND WTH!I got fair conduct as i was late for 7 times in a yr....Grrrrrrr.....
So i DIE DIE must chg this bad habit la.

I shall DEVOTE myself to studying this time:)and i want to have good time management, since i will be helping to aid the Yiolympics event as well as City Alive as part of YEC member....WooHooo....So excited=DD

jiayous 6:19 PM